Serious depression set in unexpectedly this morning. Nothing happened to trigger it. It just showed up uninvited. It's one of those times when I think: "I just can't stand this another minute!" Chances are I will stand it another minute, another hour, another day... I'll just keep slogging along in the same old muck. What else is there that's left for me Nothing. Just more of the same until my worthless old carcass finally gives up the ghost. I pray that this will come sooner rather than later. I just can't stand this another minute...

P.S. I usually try not to sound quite so morose...

The Skeezyks, I really feel for you. I woke up one Sunday morning in early August 2013 and was struck with depression with no trigger. It has worsened to severe w/ occasional suicidal ideation. Let's hope this passes soon for both of us. Do you have an appointment with you T or pdoc soon?

[bluekoi]

The Skeezyks, Sorry to hear you're so down.
Depression doesn't make sense.
Are you on any meds to help you?
PC is a great place for support!
Hang tough - You'll pull through!

Thanks for asking, Newgal. I just saw my pdoc a week ago & I don't have a T. I just have to eat my pain... I've had lot's of practice...

[LaborIntensive]

Here is a little light!

Thanks for replying to my post, Bluekoi. I've been on Cymbalta (generic) for a couple of years now. It's not great, but it's the best med I've taken & I've been on a few over the years. Yes, you're correct... I will pull through. I generally do. Some days I wish I wouldn't...

(((((((((((The Skeezyks)))))))))))

You'll get through this, I know it's hard to see anything positive when you feel like this but just because you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't there

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Thanks for asking, Newgal. I just saw my pdoc a week ago & I don't have a T. I just have to eat my pain... I've had lot's of practice...

Eating the pain is horrible. I'm right there with you. Meds not working, therapy not working. It's certainly no picnic.

[gayleggg]

I've been hanging in there since the fall of 2012. I've had days like you talk about when I wish it would just end. Somedays are a little better, but for the most part it's pretty tough. I hope they find a med that will stablize you. I've become satisfied with just not being suicidal. But I get by one day a time. Old cliche but it has worked for me. Hold on. Thinks can get better.

[Idiot17]

Depression setting in for no reason.....story of my (our) life......
This too should pass, hang in there in the meantime (though difficult).
((((((skeezyks))))))

[Frankbtl]

Hi Skeezyks, really sorry you're feeling like this. Sometimes it can come out of nowhere and the best you can do is hang on in there until something helps or until it starts to ease. Can take time but we're right here for you and whatever we can do to try to make it just a bit easier...............



Alison

Thanks Alison. I maybe making too much of this. But it feels bad. I guess I can always call my pdoc.

[Frankbtl]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Thanks Alison. I maybe making too much of this. But it feels bad. I guess I can always call my pdoc.

Hi Skeezyks, it feels bad......you're not making too much of it.
It is what it is, and you deserve all the understanding support we can give you, every little bit!!
And even if you wake up tomorrow/next week feeling better (fingers crossed!!! ) and think "Why did I go and make that thread?" it's the here and now that matters and if it hurts, it hurts!!!
But great idea in phoning your pdoc, just don't go putting it off thinking you're making too much of it!! .
They're there to help, and if you need help (even if "only a little", OK??!! ) then don't hesitate in letting them know.



Alison

[waterknob1234]

Hope things get better for you soon. I too have had suicidal thoughts. Sometimes you wish it would end but just hang in there, hopefully something better happens for you soon.

[TheOriginalMe]

I've been stuck in this depressive episode since October 2011. I feel like the 8 years of "well" that went before never happened, the depression seems and feels unrelenting. There is a glimmer of something that is not depression somewhere on my far horizon, but it never gets close enough to reach.

You're not alone, and at least with PC you can tell it how it is to friends who truly understand.

[bluekoi]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Thanks for replying to my post, Bluekoi. I've been on Cymbalta (generic) for a couple of years now. It's not great, but it's the best med I've taken & I've been on a few over the years. Yes, you're correct... I will pull through. I generally do. Some days I wish I wouldn't...

The Sleezyks,

After years of different meds, Cymbalta has been the only one that has worked for me long term.

Sleezyks, how are you feeling today?

Hello Newgal: Thanks so much for asking! In sum, I'd have to say worse. The onslaught of depression that came on suddenly yesterday is probably about the same, maybe a bit better. But I'm currently the president of the Board of Directors for the townhome association where my wife & I live & I'm in the middle of a contentious disagreement with regard to a particular issue. My nerves are frayed to the point where my hands are shaking.

I'm on 120 mg. /day of the generic form of Cymbalta. About 2 weeks ago my gave me a prescription for an old blood pressure med called Clonidine. It is now prescribed to patients with PTSD to relieve nightmares. It seemed to work pretty well. But as soon as I started taking it, my mouth dried up & my weight blossomed! So I discontinued it. I'd only been taking it for a few days but I think going off of it has had an effect on my coping ability. It's all just a little bit too much I'm afraid.

I suppose I should call my . But all he'll do is tell me to come back in & then suggest some other medication. I've been on so many over the years. And, every time my adds another med to my Cymbalta, I end up having problems. Prior to the Clonidine, he started me on Lamictal along with the Cymbalta. Six weeks into it, I got the Lamictal rash & had to be taken off immediately. Aand so it goes...

[Fuzzybear]

I don't have a T, in fact I don't have anyone IRL to talk to. And & I don't see my pdoc again until the end of June...

[Fuzzybear]

Rashes (and other things ) from meds scare me . I used to take meds without worrying so much but now... Grrrr

Keep posting, we're here for you

[Pikku Myy]

Been there way too often... and it is very hard to find your way out Hope you can find a way to make yourself feel better

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

I don't have a T, in fact I don't have anyone IRL to talk to. And & I don't see my pdoc again until the end of June...

Well, at least you have your wife to talk to, right? I do most of my honest and open talking IRL to my husband. He doesn't always know what to say when I talk about my depression, but he's always willing to listen. It's a great comfort. I don't know what I'd do without him now.

Hi Fuzzybear: Yes... I had never even heard of Lamictal rash & my didn't mention it when he prescribed it. I just developed this rash on my chest & forearms about 6 weeks into taking it, & decided I should have it looked at. So I went my GP & he sent me upstairs immediately to see a dermatologist. Since I had it looked at right away, it was able to be cleared up quickly. But from what my dermatologist told me, had I waited, it could have been serious!

No. I don't talk to my wife...