[cailin caillte]

Is it okay to feel unhappiness in life, like all the time. I just hate the way that life in general is advertised as such an enjoyable thing and I fell like I'm wasting my time here because I'm not enjoying it at all at the moment. So I guess I just want to know if that's okay to not be enjoying life for a while- sounds like a stupid question I know. I'm hoping that there will be a point when I will enjoy life again. Right now its awful for many different reasons. I am determined to find the happiness I once knew so well as a young child.

This all sounds so pointless but I always hear success stories for people who made there way out of depression, but they got help or medicine or therapy, but has anyone gone through a stage of chronic unhappiness for a year or years by themselves?

It is literally my last shard of hope in my other wise shattered mirror of a mental state. I cant wait to leave this part of my life behind and get my dream lifestyle which consists of a house in the middle of no where, where me and my animals can live, far away from people- not creepy at all.

I've been chronically depressed for six years and I just recently got help. Living away from people sounds great, but won't you get lonely? I feel like enjoying life is not natural and that you have to tell yourself lies to be happy. But that could be the depression talking. I don't know.

[Pierro]

Hello Cailin, As I am reading your post I am half watching Oprah meets Tina Turner...She has been through hell and back but was always determined that she would make happiness a priority. I think we have to think like that too. I totally understand what you mean.. just getting through the day, the week.. and so on. I think its o.k. not to be enjoying your life for a while, after all nobody is happy all the time. But at what point do you say this has gone on way too long. You have a plan and focus on that. Your drive for happiness will see you through. Best wishes..

[Altered Moment]

I think it is ok. Our society puts out this false image of happy happy happy all the time. Its is a crock. There is a lot of suffering in the world, that is just reality. I have spent 90% of my life in moderate to mild depression with lots of periods of severe depression. I do remember being really happy as a little kid. Up until 7th grade. Now sometimes I get glimpses of happy and joy or short periods but the best I can usually hope for is contentment. I am content with contentment. It feels good. Takes a lot of acceptance. That doesn't mean I don't keep trying to battle this depression. I do.