[Beepee]

I feel like I have had anxiety since 3rd grade. I had acid reflux starting then, then heart palpitations at 16 years old. Probably dysthymic since I had only one friend. I did well in school grade-wise. My dad would blow up every so often and abused my brother physically and mentally. I am seeing patterns in my reactions to people and situations that go back to my childhood. Triggers. No diagnosis until I was 32. Anyone else feel they had problems in childhood?

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[Rohag]

For me this is something of a mystery. I am aware my current long-term depression has colored my memories, making digging into the past uncertain. I've wondered about the intractability of my depression, and I'm informally trying to identify roots of that intractability in my childhood.

[TheOriginalMe]

I had a difficult childhood, can identify my depression starting back then, did well in school but never really had friends (and still don't). I'm not sure how much of my long term depression is down to the things that happened back in childhood, but whenever I've had therapy in the past they've always wanted to concentrate on those childhood issues, even when I've had more pressing immediate life issues to deal with. The causes of depression are complex and for me they probably include a genetic predisposition, a difficult childhood and some idiosyncratic personality traits that are hard to pinpoint.

I have had severe, horrible, debilitating anxiety ever since I can remember. I didn't know what it was then, but I know now. I think the depression started in my early teens.

[yumi]

Oh yes, very much so. I remember being roughly 8 or 9 I'm not sure, sitting outside our apartment with my head buried almost in my lap, crying hysterically and not knowing what it meant. All I knew was I was terribly sad and didn't comprehend why.

I was depressed from a very early age and absolutely nobody cared enough to get me seen or treated for it by a doctor. It was ignored and it just kept getting worse and worse and has never left me.

It may have made such a huge difference if I were placed into treatment at a young age. I will never know tho.

[Altered Moment]

Mine started at thirteen and some of it was childhood issues. Mostly genetic and biological I believe for a lot of reasons. Some therapists only want to talk about child hood issues. There are different theories about what type of therapy are best even if there were major childhood issues.

I was just reading today in a book about depression a section on childhood depression. I can post tomorrow what it said and links to the experts on it. Different types and different causes.

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[Nammu]

The first time I thought about killing myself I was 9, at that time they diagnosed a bleeding ulcer and severe migraines. Due to dissociation, in forth grade I had to re- learn many things because my 3rd grade yr had been so bad. Oddly I never had mental health help or diagnosis until I was 28 and finally gave in to the desire to die. I was diagnosis with PTSD, DID and MDD, later changed to BP II.

[Idiot17]

I've been depressed and didn't see a purpose in living since before nine. I remember crying that i shouldn't wake up the next day. I also had trauma then so.
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[monkeybruv]

I had panic attacks since I was about 8, and weird things that may also have been panic attacks where I'd get really dizzy and feel I was gonna pass out every time I was in a certain place in church :L For me I think maybe the anxiety lead to the depression, it was not until I was 11 that I went numb.

I got really bad migraine headaches (to the point of vomiting) and had what doctor's thought was crohn's disease when I was young (colonoscopy in 4th grade...). Haven't had a migraine or IBS symptoms for 15 years now. Pretty certain both were the result of extreme amounts of childhood stress that I was suppressing/repressing/whatever. I also had acid reflux for a while but that went away too. Now I don't have debilitating headaches when stressed or **** blood thankfully, but my problems are certainly expressed in other ways.

So yes, my mental/emotional problems have been for as long as I remember really...

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[ToeJam]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

The first time I thought about killing myself I was 9, at that time they diagnosed... and severe migraines.

I can relate to this. I too had thoughts of killing myself when I was 9… or at least that’s when I verbalised these thoughts to my parents. Had also been diagnosed with migraines from the age of 6… became manageable over time, my mum drummed mind over matter techniques into me as tablets didn’t do much… now I get the warning signs, and some of the symptoms (stiffness of neck, nausea etc) but not the pain.

Was not officially diagnosed as having depression until I was 16... but had mixed moments of withdrawing from everything/anger/anxiety for many years before.

Had a long period of my childhood that involved social isolation both at home and at school, had to rely very much on self sufficiency and yeah it took it’s toll.

It’s only recently that a T has identified trauma as having a direct impact on my depression, anxiety… and primarily ‘core beliefs’. Going to be tackling this in a month apparently.