Limbo...

So after 9 months of contemplation, I've concluded that depression really is the most painful of all afflictions. For me, I'm not physically unfit...life, from the perspective of someone looking in from the outside, would be seen as good (have a home, a wife, a son)...it's just existential angst...depressing...Ugh...Just needed to vent...Thanks for reading.

Sorry for the angst, regretful. I really hope you can find work in your chosen field ASAP so you can return to your happy, fulfilled self. And, feel free to vent away whenever you'd like - - that's what this place is for!

Thank you so very much...I hope that I can too. Depression just sucks the life out of me. I've never been so miserable in my life...

regretful, I feel so bad for you. You will pull through this, I know you will. Life will again make you happy one day!

You've come to a rational conclusion in seeking a way to vent your emotions. I hope you have peace and happiness soon. Think on the things that keep you motivated to make it through the day. What are those? Pursue it even when you don't have the energy, and I'll bet the half-hearted effort will pay in steep dividends over time. I often try to remind myself of this daily. Today I was successful, but tomorrow takes a whole new effort. Keep pressing on.

(((((regretful)))))

It is painful, and for me it feeds itself when I look at myself from what I think are other peoples' points of view: I have every reason to be happy (husband, kids, home, etc) so why the heck has all the life been sucked out of me? I like Luna Loco's suggestion of trying to focus on whatever it is that gets you through the day. Hang in there. Depression and the feelings of hopelessness it brings make it hard to focus on anything, but keep trying. And don't be too hard on yourself.