Life kind of sucks right now

I haven't been on here in a while and thought it would be good to check in. I officially have my psychiatry appointment set up; it's much further in the future than I would like, but it's the only way I can afford it. I'm still on the same meds, and I'm still not so sure how well they're working because I just feel like sitting here, staring at the wall, because I have absolutely no desire, and no motivation, to really do anything. I don't have my appointment until July, and I'm kind of worried that something is going to happen before my appointment.

On a somewhat lighter note, I finally figured out why I have such severe tremors even though I'm not even 20 yet. Last week, I was diagnosed with E.T. or Essential Tremor, which is a movement disorder where, for unknown reasons, faulty signals are sent to your muscles causing them to contract and relax rapidly, causing short, sharp movements, most often in the hands and fingers.

So, yea. Life kind of sucks right now. And to top it all off, ET is extremely uncommon in people under 50, so I get grouped in with the elderly with this.

My insomnia is also acting up, so it's really hard for me to fall asleep, which is why it's almost midnight, when I usually fall asleep around 10. I don't think I'll be able to fall asleep until about 3.

So, other than my entire life being **** right now, I'm doing alright. I've been quite apathetic for the past week or so.

I think I really just need to know that I'm not alone, at least not with some of the things that are going wrong right now.

I'm sorry to hear you're having a hard time. Hang in there until July, and remember that we're all here to support you.

Of course you are not alone. Being here you are not alone. There's a lot of wonderful people here that support each other and can understand.
Best wishes and hugs

(((((((( kittydag18 ))))))))

kittydag18, you are not alone in your plight. My life pretty much sucks right now too. Have no interest - - or ability - - in doing much of anything. Just lonely, bored and very frustrated/discouraged that my depression persists.

yeah, you are not alone in this. my life really kind of sucks right now too. Mine sucks so much that I'm even embarrassed to talk about it. I wish I had a counselor that I trusted and could talk about it, but I have no medical insurance which really angers me. Affordable healthcare....haha. I only make $10.00 an hour and I can't find affordable healthcare. If I made $200.00 a month less than I could have free healthcare.

anywho....you are not alone. I hope life starts looking up for all of us.

sucks now, sucked then, will suck forever..... that pretty much sums up life.