[dreamer62604]

I am spiralling down and down. I feel myself falling. I am beyond the reach of those who reach for me. I cannot make it anymore. I can't handle this life anymore. I've been hanging on so long, and my grip is slipping. A few more minutes and I will fall. I will fall into the deepest, darkest, hole and will not be able to be found. I am slipping away from myself. Even as I type this, I cannot feel anything. I do not know who I am anymore, I am no one. I am merely a face in the crowd. A blank, staring face. I have no purpose anymore. I have been trying so hard, and it's not working. Nothing is helping, no one can help me. I am so far gone. I've slipped off the edge. I am in the dark. I am gone....I am so sorry. So so so..sorry....sorry..........sorry...

[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]

[(JD)]

I can reach you dreamer.... I am under you! It is quite dark for sure...my T tells me to just "be " right now... I always get this way (worse in depression) after a pain flare... do I know this? no I can't remember that.

we will swirl in this darkness for a while and maybe later rise to catch a breath?

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>