Having Conflicts Lately

It seems like lately I am having conflicts. Also I feel like I am not getting along with my family. Of course that has been going on for a long time. And now I am having a conflict with an only friend that I have. I just feel sick about the whole thing.

I felt like my friend said something that was hurtful to me. He said that he had some stuff to give me and that he would give it to me when I come to his place. I told him that it's hard for me to drive to his place because I work and he lives a fairly good distance from me. He lives at another direction from where I commute from work. I don't feel like going out to drive a fairly long distance at night.

He then told me that "it is no surprise to me that you can't change your routine". I wrote back to him telling him that I was hurt by that remark. I'm sure that he will not apologize. So it looks like I'm going to lose a friend. I just lost another friend just recently, though he was not there for me that much. My friend is 78 years old; so I guess it's just natural for old people to be mean.

With my friend, I have put up with him so much. He has always been critical and gay. He has made advances at me a lot and I keep telling him that I'm not interested. He doesn't get it. Also he's very critical about everything I do. And yet I put up with it because he's all that I have. I just feel so bad now, I want to die.

As far as my family goes, it has not been good for a long time. But lately it's gotten worse. My sister calls me. There are lots of times when she calls, I don't pick up the phone because she depresses me. I talked to my brother the other day and I had not heard from him in a while. I was very depressed talking to him also because he said so many awful things. There's lots of talking behind other people's back in my family and yet they can come on so nice to me.

Looks like my computer is my only companion.

It's not really natural for old people to be mean really. A lot of old people are nice.

Why couldn't you just get it next time you have a chance to see him instead of telling him that you'll never go to see him? Maybe he wants to hang out with you and is hurt that you are telling him you don't have time for him so he's lashing out at you a little because he's hurt.

That's weird that your gay friend is always trying to come on to you when he knows you're not gay... that's not acceptable behavior in my book. When you say "critical and gay" you make it sound like "gay" is a bad trait. It's not, but being a (gay) creep who is always hitting on people who tell him to back off certainly is.

Hang in there man.