[jacq10]

OD'd last week, made a fool of myself in front of my friend who took me to the hospital, and in front of my T and pdoc two days later (still in haze from meds). Saw T today and told her how I've been super anxious and classically depressed (as opposed to my pervasive and more generalized depression). She told me that I should stop thinking about it and just try and live in the present.

THE PRESENT SUCKS.

What do I do I have no more anxiety meds because I took them all

I want to curl up in a ball and just sleep until I feel better. But I can't. too many responsibilities. And I have a huge meeting tomorrow that I have to lead...

I'm sorry.

this post is useless. Just like how i feel

Originally Posted by jacq10

OD'd last week, made a fool of myself in front of my friend who took me to the hospital, and in front of my T and pdoc two days later (still in haze from meds). Saw T today and told her how I've been super anxious and classically depressed (as opposed to my pervasive and more generalized depression). She told me that I should stop thinking about it and just try and live in the present.

THE PRESENT SUCKS.

What do I do I have no more anxiety meds because I took them all

I want to curl up in a ball and just sleep until I feel better. But I can't. too many responsibilities. And I have a huge meeting tomorrow that I have to lead...

I'm sorry.

this post is useless. Just like how i feel

Hello Jacq10: I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so unwell. Yes, I have some idea of what you're saying. I have no memories from the periods of time surrounding my 2 major suicide attempts. I have no idea what I did or said or what was done to me. And there is a sense in which I think that's probably just as well!

You know... I guess you might call me a quasi-Buddhist. I believe in the practice of mindfulness. But I sure get tired of mental health professionals tossing mindfulness out as though it's some kind of miracle cure for whatever ails us. I think if I had a T who told me to just try & live in the present I'd punch him or her in his or her present!

Anyway, I hope you begin to feel better. It takes time to recover from a med overdose... not a good time to be leading a huge meeting. Would your pdoc prescribe new anxiety med's? It probably can't happen soon enough to help with your meeting. But, if you can make it through that, perhaps a new prescription can help you to begin to feel less anxious. Best wishes...

your post is not useless. (I am useless - so I would know).

You are stressed, you have a difficult challenge in front of you and not much help to get you through it. You simply displayed a few 'internet tears'.... and I do not blame you.

life sux.

[JennyUK]

Originally Posted by jacq10

She told me that I should stop thinking about it and just try and live in the present.

That was incredibly helpful advice then!?! What, is that your therapist? Surely not?