[pisces22]

I just feel extremely bad again. Sort how I felt when everything started. I feel so scared and extremely anxious. I want to cry. I just got my period today and i remember I was on my period when my life fell apart a few weeks ago, when this all started. I want to see my therapist and talk to her or a doctor. I want some medicine or something. I want some relieve but I know that's not possible at the moment. I have to wait 5 days to see my therapist and 6 days to see my doctor. I'm just going from my bed to my couch, thinking and thinking. I'm on my phone but there's nothing to do on it. I feel so powerless and hopeless. I just want to take one of my sleeping pills and sleep. Because my thoughts will not let me sleep naturally but then I will not be able to sleep at night and I'll be alone with my thoughts in the dark. I wish someone could help me right now but I know that's not possible. I'm so sorry for the excessive posts.

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[pisces22]

I just told my mom about the fear of dying and I don't know how I feel about that.

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[glok]

Hello, pisces22. Extreme distress is hard to fight through. Turning off the negatives and calming down would be helpful. What can you do to distract yourself?

[waterknob1234]

Hi Pisces. I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. I think menstrual periods make everything worse. That fear and anxiety thing is horrible. I wish there was something I could do to help but I will send hugs your way. Pm me if you feel the need.

[pisces22]

I don't know. Watching tv, using my phone doesn't really distract me. Not much. I'm really anxious, having so many scary thoughts, I feel numb, empty, sad, w/o energy and unreal. But my sisters are going hiking and I want to go to stop thinking but I'm indecisive

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[pisces22]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

Hi Pisces. I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. I think menstrual periods make everything worse. That fear and anxiety thing is horrible. I wish there was something I could do to help but I will send hugs your way. Pm me if you feel the need.

Thank you

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[glok]

Please decide to go. The exercise and fresh air will help you. Being with others is helpful too.

[TheOriginalMe]

Don't apologise for posting. Feeling depressed is horrible, feeling alone and depressed is worse. Just by being here I feel a little less alone, I hope you do too.

Talk to your doc about your pre-menstrual symptoms, it might be that hormonal birth control could give you some relief. Hormones can really trigger depression in me and it is just another layer that I can do without. Evening Primrose Oil can be helpful too if you prefer a more natural remedy.

[waggiedog]

Hello dear Pisces22. Oh hunny, please DON'T ever say sorry for posting, after all that's exactly what PC is all about ~ after all, it wouldn't be here at all if nobody posted!! You do sound very down and depressed, anxiety can be totally overwhelming as I well know. I very much understand your love of sleep, I find that sleep is my refuge away from a world I feel I don't fit in with. When I've very depressed, sometimes suicidelly so, I stay in bed for 22 hours per day. I know it must seem like an impossibilly long time to wait until you see your therapist and Dr, and it is but do you have some sort of crises line (phone No.) where you could talk to someone qualified to help? I agree that hormones cause us a great deal of grief, even people who don't have mental health issues or suffer depression often have problems in dealing with their cycles. Please DO keep posting here because we want to hear from you. I wish and pray that your two appointments in a few days time go well and the outcome is favourable. I send you BIG WARM HUGS and if you'd like to message me either on my visitor page or by a PM, feel free to do so anytime.