[GoodnightNicolae]

OK, so i'm brand new to the forum and I posted my intro earlier. I was led in this direction so I figured I would give a good description on what is going on.

I'm in my early 30's I have a great job, house, etc...However I have this overwhelming feeling of unhappiness within me. This feeling is driving a drinking habit that is quickly causing issues at my job and relationships, which in turn makes me slide deeper into whatever this is. If I lose my job I will be hard pressed to find another that pays as well as i'm not a college grad or have any discernible skills. My wedding is coming up later this year and I should be excited about it but, like all things in my life i'm unhappy with the prospect of married life.

I have a tendency to shut myself off, make excuses not to leave the house, the only time i'm in a good mood is when the shades are drawn, I have something alcoholic to drink, and I'm alone. Which brings full circle the work aspect of this. What is strange is I see myself doing these things and basically am to weak or helpless to stop myself. Its like I can only live in a world of chaos...I don't know...maybe I just need a hobby.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, GoodnightNicolae. It sounds as if you may be suffering from depression and are using alcohol as self-medication.

Even though depression can present as sadness, it's not the same thing. It's a disorder that messes with your moods. You don't have to be in bad or obvious stressful circumstances to suffer from it.

Several physical problems can mimic or accompany depression. Is it possible for you to get a full medical examination?