[Findingjoy1795]

19. Female. Diagnoses with depression over three years ago.

I crashed and burned last Friday after my meds were stopped abruptly.

I won't go into to detail, but there were suicidal ideas (not wanting to live), desires to self-harm, and things got scary. So I went to the hospital. Twice. I'm stable now (or I wouldn't be posting), and just saw my psychiatrist to get new meds. However, this crisis made me realize that I need to do something a little more intense about my depression. But I'm not sure what. My parents showed me a residential program (NOT a hospital) a few hours from where I live. It's especially for young adults struggling with mental health issues, and provides support and structure in a 24/7 setting. I'm wondering if I could get some feedback on what is "bad enough" to require (or suggest a need for) residential treatment. Here's what I've got:

Not wanting to live, but not wanting to die.

Self-harm

Can't exactly function. Forced myself out of bed. And even more so to take a shower.

No hope that it will ever get better

Numbing to the world (too much pain)

Sobbing before falling asleep

Concerned for my own safety in general (but not specifically right now).

I did complete an IOP this winter, which helped a little. But not a lot. Why we are considering something a little more intense.

Also. Please don't tell me to go to the hospital. I went twice this weekend, and I am stable as of right now.

So, anyone have experience in a residential treatment? What was your situation before? Did it help you? How?

[kaliope]

I would determine it on your ability to function and your ability to keep yourself safe. generally if you cant keep yourself safe you check into the hospital. you say for now you can keep yourself safe. but if you cant function, preform activities of daily living then you need help. certainly being in a 24/7 care facility would take much of life's burdens off of your shoulders. your focus would be on just getting better. im functioning fine but going thru a lot of trauma stuff in therapy. it is causing a lot of chaos in my life. t mentioned a trauma center somewhere. if I could get away from my life to go to it I would, just to get focused on getting better. I personally think it is worth it. think about it. take care.