[ThisWayOut]

I just got paid for the month the day before yesterday, and I already have no money... I bought some stuff that I needed, but a lot of it was waste. And now I don't know what to do. I am going to try to return what I can...
I keep doing this to myself. It's worse when I'm more depressed. I just do stupid things I know I will regret later. That just makes me hate myself more, and be more depressed... I was so good about money till this month too. I was more responsible and actaully had money for bills... Then this weekend everything was shot. :/ ...and I didn't even buy one of the things I had been planning on getting for the last several weeks... I just want to hide. I want to forget about life and living and struggling. This sucks...

[Pierro]

I have been like you for the past two months. My bills are not paid either, but, unlike you I dont't care. I am sorry that you are havig difficulties, maybe you can set up some direct debits from your bank account. It doesnt work for me though because I just spend the money regardless. Sorry I am not helping your situation

[Fuzzybear]

[ThisWayOut]

i have them set up, but I spend before they go out... I'm so tired of struggling. I'm tired of fighting this. I'm tired of feeling like crap... I'm tired.

[(JD)]

Re: digging myself deeper...

May I officially take away your shovel???

This type of behavior, shopping, falls under self-medicating. The endorphin rush one who likes to shop receives DOES make them feel better, that's what endorphins do!

Try and find other avenues for this endorphin dumping that you obviously need. Watch or listen to comedies, go places that used to make you feel good and where you enjoyed yourself...places with high fun energy. Just being there might be enough for your body to produce that level of endorphins.

Here's another way to do that too

[waterknob1234]

I understand how you feel. My paycheck is gone as soon as I get it. Income is low, bills are high. Sometimes we have to purchase a few little things that help us feel better. Don't berate yourself too much. We do the best we can with what we have. I'm like you, I'm tired, and I'm tired of struggling. Hang in there. At least we can give each other emotional support.

[ThisWayOut]

Originally Posted by (JD)

May I officially take away your shovel???

This type of behavior, shopping, falls under self-medicating. The endorphin rush one who likes to shop receives DOES make them feel better, that's what endorphins do!

Try and find other avenues for this endorphin dumping that you obviously need. Watch or listen to comedies, go places that used to make you feel good and where you enjoyed yourself...places with high fun energy. Just being there might be enough for your body to produce that level of endorphins.

Here's another way to do that too

please, take the damned shovel!! I seem to go from one bad coping skill to another... it's really getting pathetic...