[Sammy11]

Hi. I'm new to this site. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Right now my depression is at it's worse that its been at in years. I was hospitalized 4 weeks ago for suicidal thoughts. What I want to know is how to you engage in life when all I want to do is stay in bed and shut out the world. This is very hard for me cause I have 2 young children. My husband is extremely supportive, yet I feel very guilty for being like this now. I've had depression since a teenager on and off, so I know it will get better but right now I feel like I'm trapped at the bottom of a very deep hole and can't get out.

To make matters worse, my parents and sister don't believe in mental illness so they have no clue what's going on. Yet they are phoning constantly to come over. I'm off work this week to rest up, yet I can't tell them that because if they ever found out it would be horrible. They would blame me and basically say that I'm stressing them out and how could I do that to them and why don't I just suck it up.

I just want to wake up one morning and want to get up and out of bed. I'm currently on meds and my pdoc upped my doses, so I'm hoping it will help.

[Little Jay]

Hi Sammy,

It's nice to meet you! I totally understand how you are feeling. I had once asked my partner to drag or kick me out of be in the mornings, but to his dismay I then continued to lay on the floor! Now though, I've found that when I switched to my new meds I have been up and wide awake every morning! No more being forced out of bed with a *thud* as I land on the floor!

There is nothing worse than when people don't understand and being told to just "suck it up". I know it makes me want to scream at people who have said that. But it's just because they don't understand, and have never experienced anything like it - to them, feeling sad is something that passes and may be easy to just "snap out of". My best advice would be to just ignore any comments, because only you truly know how bad you really feel.

Everyone is really great here, and I'm sure you will find some really great support whenever you need it.

Take care of yourself!

[DePressMe]

sammy, I can totally relate! My depression and anxiety can take me hostage and not let me out bed. Heck sometimes its a battled just to make it 3 feet to my desk chair so I can smoke....you're not alone...sorry I can't write a longer reply--ITS 4:15 am aqnd I got to get to bed!! Take care.......D.

[Belmore]

Maybe being at work is good for me although its because of work I'm depressed. If i didnt work i would have stayed in bed the whole day but I cant. I had a horrifying thought just now and Im not suicidal. I wished i just died in my sleep tonight.

[Joey32225]

I can relate to what youre saying. i too have 2 young kids but me and my ex-wife (seperated) kind of get along, she knows what i go though and all. My family pretends my sickness doesnt exist or like last night my mom said she thought i was just trying to get attention. im 35 i dont need attention, not in the manner she put it.

I hope you feel better soon