[BubonicPlague]

I thank you all, for those who have given me advice on how I could make my life better for me. However, I am sad to say that I just can't take your word for it. I am sorry that I'm wasting your time. You have done all that you could to help me, but I feel like no matter how hard I try, I'll just be prevented in everyway possible to achieve what I want.

It's like it was meant to be that way. That's how I'm wanted to be. I keep on getting put back in the same place, and change won't be allowed.

You were there for me.

I have failed you and I have failed myself.

I am sorry...

[Purplesept2007]

Hello BP,
You are not wasting anyone's time we are all here to try and help it each other through things. I don't believe I know your story but that does not really matter I just want you to know we do care. This is something possibly could help. Please read I have it posted in my craft room along with other things that seem to help sometimes. Anytime you would like to talk I am here to listen also you could send a PM if you want to...

CHAPTER 1
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost...I am hopeless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

CHAPTER 2
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But...is isn't my fault.

CHAPTER 3
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

CHAPTER 4
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

CHAPTER 5
I walk down another street.

By: Portia Nelson

I have been on that same roller coaster and it is no fun when you feel you can't ever get off. Hold on

[Altered Moment]

For many of us here it is a life time struggle with limited success. It can be a matter of learning to live with it in the best way we possibly can.

Please don't give up on yourself and us. You have not failed anything. We are up against very big obstacles.

Nobody wastes my time like I do Hang in there

It has been said that enlightenment is a journey, not a destination. I believe the same could be said for recovery from mental illness. Say, with John Paul Jones: "Surrender? Hell! I have not yet begun to fight!"

[NowhereUSA]

i think learning new ways of thinking and being are like learning to walk. when a toddler tries to walk and repeatedly falls over, we don't say they failed at walking. we are tickled pink that they tried. if they hit their head, we tell them it's okay and give them kisses. when they try again we encourage the attempts.

and one day that little toddler is running around.

i wish sometimes we could remember that grace with ourselves. i'm still learning to walk and in my case, with depression, that's a health condition that may mean my walking is delayed, that i fall more times, that i have to have some extra help, but you know what. it's about the trying and not about the falling.

and not one word of encouragement, or one moment of listening is wasted just because someone falls over.

take your time. be kind to yourself.

[TheOriginalMe]

I'm sure that everyone here will have felt like you do right now, I know that I have and the feelings of defeat never really leave me. Sometimes I have the strength to fight and sometimes I don't. Much of my life is a compromise just to get me through to the next day, but there's nothing wrong with that.

We're here whenever you want us.