[Nightworld1066]

Things are going slightly okay for me I am finally getting help and support from social services. I have joined regular classes starting this September at my local college as hobbies/potential career path and I am 50/50 over Open Uni or brick uni then things could get better for me. I am also doing voluntary work at my local park helping out in the coffee shop and gift shop

But the major concern is that nothing i seem to do makes me feel full emotionally like these activities can satisfy me short term but never long term and it really affects my health, the problem is that I haven't been satisfied with my life, I could get a top grade at uni (2:1 or above or 80%) and still want more i have tried everything to combat this feeling but it never goes away it lingers on for years/decades and I have really had enough the feeling.

Then I go through stages wher because of the emptiness feeling i lose interest and things go deeply down hill, (thoughts of ending it) or i end up going into my manic highs where the extra pro-plus/coffee, no sleep, too much stress, over exercising and restricting gets really bad, (it starts off with regular 5:2 diet and then the next thing i know I haven't eaten properly in months. But no matter how much I try i can't shift this empty feeling even if I am busy distracted doing activities I enjoy.

Mental health are really useless and mind i have practically given up them simply they stop these activities and this horrible word "recovery" comes to mind, but how can you stop this when i can't stop myself its something that happens naturally I have no control of it.

Please help, what can i do and what would you suggest i try?

Hi Nightworld1066!

Have you tried seeing a therapist, you may find that you benefit from having someone to talk to. They can also teach you different skills to promote positive thinking and help to keep you in a good place emotionally.

Best Wishes!

[Altered Moment]

I agree with you. These things just happen and we have no control. That is how mental illness is. All we can do is treat it with the best available methods and keep trying. Try to keep the short term goals short and don't think about the whole future.

I think manic phases can be effectively treated with meds. Depression is kind of a crap shoot.

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[Nightworld1066]

The thing is all the meds I have been on have caused me major problems. For example, one made me gain weight like crazy, another made go to the bath room really bad all day, others have made me sleep all day but nothing worked for longer period

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