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Life has become so bland. Nothing I do, not even the stuff my therapist suggested, is Giving me pleasure. This episode has started around May or around there with little aviation. This infinite sadness will never go away. I'm psychologically distressed, I can't stop worrying about multiple things. The psychiatrist I called a week ago hasn't bothered to respond, so I can't get medication, and all I have is a therapist, which isn't seeming to help. I've gotten worse since I started. I want to end my life. What's the point in life? I see nothing exciting in my future. It looks honestly bleak. My positive self-esteem doesn't exist. My next appointment is Saturday, and I really feel like commiting suicide. Or at least self-harming, whether it's cutting or burning or whatever, just to see if I can still feel pain. I've never had impulses to self-harm before yesterday, I've only had suicidal impulses, which I excessively worry about acting on (OCD problem, I know).
Can I have some reasons not to commit suicide?
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Dx: Major depression w/ psychotic features (moderately severe), social anxiety disorder (moderately severe), primarily obsessive compulsive disorder. I am very suicidal and honestly want to die. No medication yet. psychotherapy since 6/29/14, depression started 9/15/12, about 3-4 episodes since then. Last edited by darkpurplesecrets; Aug 04, 2014 at 07:49 AM. Reason: added trigger icon... |
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I would suggest getting in to see that pdoc as soon as possible and possibly getting on meds. There is hope that you can be better. It happens. Hold on until the miracle happens. If you are in real danger call 911 or check into the psyche ward.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman Major Depressive Disorder Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun. Recovering Alcoholic and Addict Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide. Male, 50 Fetzima 80mg Lamictal 100mg Remeron 30mg for sleep Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back |
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