[Msboot]

Hi

I have major depression. Does anyone else out there struggle with even wanting to try to get better? My doc continues to urge me to try different strategies but I don't want to try anymore. I don't care. He says I need to make a choice to fight but how do I do that when I just don't have the energy to care.

Msboot

[TheOriginalMe]

When I get to a certain point on a downswing, I'll just close down, curl up and accept my fate. When I'm like that I feel almost comfortable and relatively safe as though the depresssion can no longer hurt me.

Getting over that point is really difficult and always seems like such a high risk thing to do. Why would I want to leave a place where I feel safe (even if I'm not functioning) to re-enter the big wide world where I can get very hurt, where things go wrong, where there are so many emotional triggers?

Getting the right meds should give you the energy to care, and therapy the coping strategies. Maybe you could talk to your doc about meds if your current ones aren't helping enough (that's assuming you are already on ads, if not then maybe it is the time to consider meds).

[nija43]

Oh, yes. Most definitely. Lack of motivation for most everything, especially for things you used to like, is a big part of being depressed. It can be very difficult to live with or to overcome.

I told my therapist a few years ago that I've been depressed for so long, I think I would miss feeling this way if it ever stopped. It would be like missing an old friend.

Every once in a great while, I sort of wish that I wasn't depressed, but that feeling tends to pass with the next breath I take.

[Altered Moment]

It is very difficult. Sometimes I surrender to it until it passes.

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[lilypup]

I also just give up until it passes. I watch for signs of suicidal feelings, but other than that I just live through it. I'm not one of these people who can work their way out of depression.

[sideblinded]

Originally Posted by lilypup

I also just give up until it passes. I watch for signs of suicidal feelings, but other than that I just live through it. I'm not one of these people who can work their way out of depression.

For some reason, maybe the prednisone I took for five days....I just can't hardly pull myself up and out of my depression this time. I've been two weeks on remeron 15 mg and clonazepam only. I also can't work my way out of depression. I am just trying to wait this out but it is so difficult. I am going through the motions of life but not enjoying anything. (sigh)

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[vans1974]

Originally Posted by Msboot

Hi

I have major depression. Does anyone else out there struggle with even wanting to try to get better? My doc continues to urge me to try different strategies but I don't want to try anymore. I don't care. He says I need to make a choice to fight but how do I do that when I just don't have the energy to care.

Msboot

For me it's only about the meds...since I have treatment resistant bipolar depression, I have to tweak my med cocktail every few months. Finding the right dose is critical...but once I find the right med combo everything is okay and managable. But without the proper meds, all the counseling, exercise, sunlight, etc., is useless...best of luck!

[regretful]

I have no motivation. I'm functioning like an automaton...I get out of bed and just go through the motions, counting the minutes until I can go to sleep. This is not living...it's just existing...