[Choisen123]

Hello,

I don't really know where to start and think this may be quite long and I apologize for that. I would appreciate anyone who takes the time to read this as well as any advice. I am a 27yr old female and live in Alberta, Canada. I am married and have a dog, fish and a snail.

For a while now, I have been feeling really down and unmotivated. I constantly feel the need to get away and leave the life I have right now in the dust and just go live in the woods. I absolutely despise my work and the people around me. I feel like they are fake and absorbed by all materialistic things as well as inconsiderate to those around them. I work in a corporate setting (Head Office) and sit at my desk all day, like a robot. I feel like life is wasting away and that I can't do as I please because I have to "follow the rules of life". Yesterday I was told the shirt I was wearing was not professional enough, when I thought I looked quite nice. Just another small thing that make me hate this "cookie cutter life".

I am getting more and more annoyed with society and how people are changing, obsessed by technology and rude. Kids don't play outside anymore and grow up way too fast.

I am not happy with my appearance either. The only thing I am sure of in life right now and forever is the love for my husband and my dog. They are the only ones that keep me grounded in life and the only reason I keep waking up in the morning.

With all of this and all these feelings, it seems like change would be the obvious solution. But HOW? I have no motivation for any of it. I want all these things but cant do it on my own. I am lost and stuck. I need help understanding it all and making it better, but don't even know how or where to begin.

Please help....

[Travelinglady]

Hello, Choisen123, and welcome to Psych Central! I certainly think you are depressed, too. I encourage you to see your family doctor to get checked out. Tell him/her what you have told us.

I am bipolar, so I sometimes get depressed. I take meds and see a therapist.

You might want to post in the Work and Career forum about your work issues. I suspect some folks there will understand.

I hope you feel better soon.

[bluekoi]

Choisen123, I wish life could be simple again, too. You are fortunate to have your husband and your dog. I suffer from depression and need to be on an anti-depressant. Also, therapy can help you feel good about your life again!

[Choisen123]

Hello, Thanks for responding. I have been to a psychologist and doctor before for Panic Disorder. I am still on 5MG of my medication but hope to come off it soon.

[Vossie42]

Sorry to hear that work is sucking the life out of you. You are not alone. For many people, their job is just something that pays the bills. It's not a source of fulfillment. Since you want to make changes but are stuck, do you think you could enlist your husband's help? Is there something you could do together with him or as a family? Some outdoor activity?

[lilypup]

I think work can be a tremendous trigger for depression. I understand what you mean by your life sort of drifting by. I hope you find some relief soon.

[Aponi]

Hiya Choisen! I feel for you, and completely understand where you are coming from as I am in a similar situation. My Hubby and Pets are the only things keeping me sane it feels like. I also sometimes feel trapped in my day to day life, I think a lot of that is just being indoors so much, as is the norm in society today.

When I can get the willpower to make myself get up and do something, going to the water always helps me (very relaxing/calming etc.). Getting up to do it is another story, but if you know something that helps you out, perhaps suggest your husband help (kindly/gently) push you to go do it, or go do it with you. When I am most down, my husband will practically drag me to the car and drive me to the water, it somehow helps to ground me a bit, and helps me put my thoughts in order some. You said you want to run away to the woods, so maybe try camping or just hiking to start? Depending on your dog, he can come along, and all of your support system (sans fish and snail of course) will be right there with you.

Easier said than done, I know! But enlist your Hubby's help; for me, sometimes I just need a fire lit under my backside to get moving.