I've been trying to kill myself and over forty attempts, numerous medical hospitalizations, a few ambulance rides and some time on the ICU I'm still alive. And although I have a few (reasonably foolproof) plans, I'm just too tired to get up and perform them.
So I had a bladder infection last week. When I received the test results I tolt the doctor's assistant that I didn't have symptoms anymore, so that I didn't need the antibiotics. I was hoping on developing a pyelum infection (that's a part of your kidney that often gets infected if you don't treat a bladder infection). Regrettably, it didn't happen.
I haven't looked before crossing the street in at least eight months.

So now I've decided to stop eating. I won't stop drinking because I go crazy if I don't drink, but eating is easier as I'm never hungry anyway. I can't stop eating completely, because I live at home and my parents won't allow it, but I can minimize.

I'm refusing to sustain this body because I don't want it to go on.

No please please don't do this. You are so worth this and the urges will pass, they are strong but not as strong as you. Look at what you have survived and you are still here. That is true bravery. Its so, so hard but please don't give up and please eat.

[Idiot17]

(((((Breadfish)))))

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( Breadfish ))))))))

[Rubytuesday81]

I can't give any advice but wanted to send hugs as I myself am going through this at the moment. For me it's because it's the only thing I can control at the moment. I have no control over my moods Or depression or anything that is going on with me so I don't eat.

[Altered Moment]

Please seek help. Things can get better.

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