[tired88gr]

Hello, my name is Harry, I'm 26 years old, I'm overweight, but I'm on a good diet now and lost some pounds, which gave me courage to continue.

I have been diagnosed with Depression and OCD. I had and still have suicidal thoughts, something that would upset someone healthy, a bit, to me it's upsetting me a lot.

My life until now is mostly bad, my aunt has Down syndrome and she is pretty sick now, she is actually old for her terms (47) and I can't stand to think she will die! I feel like I'm chocking at the thought of it.

I want to die, and please before you tell me that I have life ahead of me, let me tell you that what life has to offer me is pain...nothing more, nothing less.
The only reasons I have not done it yet is 1) I'm ****ing coward and 2) I know it would destroy my loved ones...but it's too hard to hang on...

[bluekoi]

Harry, Welcome to PsychCentral! Congratulations on taking off some weight! A good diet and exercise will help you feel better overall. Are you seeing a mental health professional to help you deal with the depression & OCD? I'm on an antidepressant and it has made a huge difference to my quality of life. I'm sorry to hear your aunt is so sick. You've found a reason to live - your loved ones. Now you need to seek professional help to deal with your illness. I wish you well on your journey.

[glok]

Welcome to the Community, tired88gr. If you are unwilling to risk making the changes that would give you an opportunity for a better life, you will need to find a way to accept the status quo. It is your choice.

I wish you well.

[Fuzzybear]

[waterknob1234]

Hi tired88gr, depression is a cruel illness. I understand, and I believe many of us here on this forum can relate. I am sorry about your aunt's health problems. I know you love her very much. You made me think of the people I see every Sunday morning. I work with a Sunday school program for special needs adults. Many of our folks have Down's Syndrome and I understand they are prone to some physical health problems. They tend to also be such sweet and lovable people. You and your aunt are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and best wishes.

[Mustkeepjob32]

I commend you on losing some weight. I'm 36, male, and overweight and actually gained even more weight at the start of this year. I wan to lose some weight and the fact that you have encourages me.