Yesterday was.. bad.

I just wanted to curl up and die. So I curled up in a corner of my room (there's a couple of pillows there for that purpose) and cried. My mum (I live at home) sat with me, talked with me, and eventually called the crisis people.
I didn't want to go to the hospital because I was just too ****ing tired. Couldn't imagine actually doing so - it meant standing up, going to the other side of the room, picking up my pants, changing into my pants, going downstairs... Far too exhausting.
So my mum asked me "what do you think will help you" and I said "Sleep. Sleeping pills."
Phone assessment by a pdoc. I've had temazepam (Restoril/Normison) in the past, and it traps me in nightmares. I have terrible nightmares, once or twice a night, so.. not preferable. Lorazepam (Ativan/Orfidal) has me wetting the bed for the first two nights I take it, although I sleep very well on it. But I am too tired to get out of bed and shower in the middle of the night so that wasn't an option either.
I've taken zolpidem in the past, was prescribed for two months, but I quit after ten days because it wasn't helping me.

Well there weren't a lot of options left according to the pdoc. I was about to say that I'd take the temazepam - I just wanted to SLEEP, even if it meant terrible nightmares - when he suggested I take oxazepam (Seresta/Serax).

I did that last night, woke up at 6 in the morning which was better than expected (When I took oxazepam to sleep in the past, I'd always wake up 5 hours after I took it. Meaning usually 3 AM.).

Still so very tired though. And it just isn't ending.

[Teacake]

Breadfish, I don't know your story but you post on the PTSD forum too. I've found the amino acid GABA taken according to pain researcher Dr. Billie J Sahleys protocol eliminates nightmares and restores normal sleep. Ive heard an hour of yoga raises GABA levels too.

Don't mix GABA with psych meds without docs approval. I ditched the meds. The cheap natural stuff works better for me. I hope you get some good sleep.

[Hellion]

If the oxazepam and other things aren't working well, have you ever tried trazodone? I mean I know doctors do the prescribing but you might inquire about that......its what I take for sleep and while it can leave a sort of a drowsy after effect in the morning I find a cup or two of black tea or coffee helps that..but yeah not like tired drowsy and that is more likely if you take it late like 2 in the morning cause you haven't gotten to sleep as obviously the effects will last longer into the morning rather than if i took it earlier and would probably entirely wear off by the time I get up.

But yeah sleep issues suck that is for sure I have found the trazodone helps though, they've tried giving me anti-histimines for sleep which I do not find very helpful.

[waterknob1234]

So sorry breadfish. I hate those days when you just want to curl up and die. Hoping and praying you feel better soon. Love and hugs to you.

[Fuzzybear]