Feeling Like an Idiot

I feel like an idiot because my depression is getting bad again. And I feel like an idiot because I have nothing to be depressed about so it seems less legitimate. The only bad thing currently is my job. I want to cry in the mornings before leaving for work. But other than that I can quit in three months, engaged, moving in three months, new city, etc. I had genomic testing done because I wasn't responding to meds. It was useful but I'm still in this hole.

I want to be able to get out of bed in the morning. Enjoy things. Not be crying. Have hobbies. Have any sort of sexual desire. Why can't I just be happy?

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You are not an idiot! Depression is a chronic illness that we still don't totally understand. It can take time to find a right combination of medications. Therapy can also play a role in helping to overcome the depression.

I feel like an idiot fairly often as well, however I do not think it is true....i mean everyone screws up here and there. Not to mention depression can affect anyone so certainly do not beat yourself up over feeling depressed when there is nothing to be depressed about. Thing is with depressive disorders we can feel depressed even in good situations, but nothing to be guilty about we don't choose it....the important thing I guess is to try and keep going, maybe take things slower and what not but.....just keep in mind its not a flaw in you and try to keep hope that you will find a way to enjoy things....I can totally understand that. I mean I really like music but there are times I cannot listen to any because I can't enjoy it in the past couple years I went to a concert of a band I love and couldn't enjoy it so I do understand how difficult that aspect is. Many people may not understand, but I know the feeling to well and its probably one of the most debilitating effects of depression. But try and stay away from any self blame(I say this because I had issues with that and it just contributed to things getting worse).