[oakraider]

As of today i have watched and had to deal with everyone that i cared about walk out of my life. The last friend that i had wants nothing to do with me anymore. It makes me wonder, what is so wrong with me that makes it so easy to just write me off and not think twice about it. All i do is work and come home sit in my room by myself, no one to talk to, no friends left, no girlfriend, no kids. Just a job and a room, that is all my life is now. Nothing is fun. I feel like life is just a big waiting room, like at a dr office, just quietly sitting waiting to finally be called upon. But no one ever does, i try to meet new people but all i really can grt is a quick hello. How do u find a reason to push on and have a happy/normal life when no one sees you as normal. When no one thinks that you are worth the time. When people u care about treat u like u have a disease and try there hardest to avoid you. When your not even worth a return text from someone your close to. I am so lost and have been all my life. I have never felt good enough to even share a lunch table with people because i feel like they see me as annoying or a burden or tjey look at me like "i cant believe he thinks he csn sit here" this is the first time ive ever tried to open up and talk about how i really feel inside, so forgive me if its all over the place. I have so much pent up anger frustration sadness guilt regret, a whole lot of all of that. I feel worthless, like my life has no value to anyone. Has any one else ever felt like this?

[Mike_J]

One thing that helped me out was to Google Depression support groups in my area. Gives you someplace to go, something to do, and a good opportunity to meet people who will understand your struggles.

[Nammu]

I second Mike J. It is best to go for yourself- to help yourself -and gradually you'll get to know others that have interests in common..

[steven2601]

oakrider i know exactly how you feel, and i am in the same boat i have been trying to get help with my depression for 10 years and i'm only at the starting point where they keep stuffing me full of different AD's and won't even get me any kind of therapy(i have been rejected times even though i have made 2 suicide attempts... one very recently) but if you stop fighting like i kind of have you end up nowhere and you do lose everything(like i have) i hope this makes sense to you

[IrisBloom]

It's important to have friends who accept who you are, but it's more important to be a person that they want to be friends with. You are not here for them, or your family, you are here for YOU. Good advice to find a support group. Be kind to yourself and be a person that you like.

[Alone & confused]

I know exactly what you mean about the "waiting room"! They say life is a journey, not a destination....but I beg to differ! All I do is simply "exsist". I don't feel as though what I do is "living"! So if you want someone to complain to, I'm your girl because I could write a book on the subject! I don't have friends either due to the fact that they created more drama for me than they were worth, & I already have too much of my own.

[Idiot17]

((((Hugs))))

[Fuzzybear]