[falsememory7]

I am a fantastic liar. I've mastered the art of putting on a brave face and bright smile as if everything is wonderful, although it's not. People love spending time with me because I'm "the girl who's always happy". Am I the only one who does this? Who lies about how things are going great, because the pain of telling the truth is so unbearable? ... I am so empty.

[kaliope]

I remember a girl asking me what I was always so happy about.....it crashed my world, because I didn't have anything to be happy about. I didn't realize what a good liar I was to the world.

[falsememory7]

Kali, I know how you feel - people ask me that all the time. It's so depressing how good we can fool the whole world... yet our life hasn't really changed. I hope things get better with you

[anxteach]

I'm the opposite. I find it impossible to hide when I'm feeling crappy. I wish I had the ability to mask it more, but I know that would come with its own problems. Sometimes I think that pretending things are okay can lead to things actually feeling okay... like the fake it till you make it idea. But I don't think that's possible all the time without being exhausting!

[falsememory7]

Anx, I think that's amazing that you don't hide your feelings when you feel crappy - that's so incredibly difficult! Masking it definitely has it's own problems, and sometimes I feel like it's the coward's way out for myself, because once I start the lie, I can't stop. Maybe I just need to try harder to be more honest thanks

[morganjane]

I'm struggling with similar issues. I'm the "good" girl who solves everybody else's problems. I never let on that I'm offended, I'm the one who's calm and positive in the midst of the chaos and it kills me that NO ONE CAN TELL IT'S ALL FAKE. I feel like none of my relationships are real because no one knows the real me, the depressed, broken me who's struggling just to get out of bed. How do you stop lying without driving everybody away?