[Ixodon]

I feel very depressed and empty pretty much all the time, and I feel no excitement towards life altogether, and this has been going on for a long time but I've been especially feeling this way for the past 2 months now. I feel a lot of boredom or depression towards life in general. When I'm not at work, I try to do things to stop myself from feeling this way...I try going out different places (even if it means going to these places by myself) or try to hang out with friends, and alot of times I might feel happy in that moment, but when I go home or when I wake up the next day I might feel even more depressed or empty than before. I realize this isn't always true, but a lot of times, it really feels and looks like a lot of people are a lot more satisfied with their life and living happier, more fulfilling lives every time I look around me or look at some of the people I know of. Alot more happier with their lives, always have different things to do or places to be at everyday, have certain things to look forward to, enjoy their job and are proud of their job and where they work at, have much more eventful things going on, and so on. I feel like I have nothing to live for or nothing to look forward to. I never look forward to the next day because I know it's going to be exactly the same as everyday. Everyday when I wake up all I feel is a huge rush of negative emotions....anger, depression, and just this feeling of not wanting the day to happen. I know that one of the reasons, but definitely not the only reason why I feel this way is because of how badly I hate my job. I've applied around to many places but still nothing. I work at a warehouse and I really, really hate just scanning boxes all day or throwing items in boxes all day because it's just very mind-numbing, and it doesn't feel like there's anything important, interesting, or any kind of substance or anything satisfying going on in your day at work and there are many times where time goes by really slow. I've been constantly feeling just this huge emptiness and like I have no importance at all or like my life or even myself as a person doesn't matter and I feel like this is getting worse. I have been deeply struggling with problems of self-worth and there are alot of times where I wonder why am I here or feeling as if a lot of people are better than I am or live lives that have more fulfilling. I wish I didn't feel as if I don't matter. I don't want to keep feeling these terrible feelings anymore. I'm tired of feeling like this and tired of dreading the next day and just want all of this to stop.

[lonewolf59]

Hey buddy, it sounds like your in the same situation as me, nothing to look forward to or be excited about. Living the same day on repeat. Go to work, come home, eat, sleep. I've felt this way for a long time, just viewing life as boring, dull, bland, and undesirable. Have you tried seeing a therapist? Medication has never done s*** for me but therapy has helped a little. Unfortunately, there are a lot of sh***y therapists, you have to find one you can connect with, good luck man, I know how hard it is, hope you can get back on track soon.

[Little Jay]

(((Ixodon))) sending hugs!
I know EXACTLY how this feels, especially about feeling that way about work! I am in the same boat, I've applied for loads but nothing. And I know what you mean about feeling empty, I feel that way a lot too - like I've lost the ability to care about anything any more. What helps me is trying to find a way to make myself care again - I look through a family photo album, or go and explore somewhere new, or get an adrenaline rush from doing something exciting. I hope you find a way to make yourself feel a bit better

[Ixodon]

Originally Posted by lonewolf59

Hey buddy, it sounds like your in the same situation as me, nothing to look forward to or be excited about. Living the same day on repeat. Go to work, come home, eat, sleep. I've felt this way for a long time, just viewing life as boring, dull, bland, and undesirable. Have you tried seeing a therapist? Medication has never done s*** for me but therapy has helped a little. Unfortunately, there are a lot of sh***y therapists, you have to find one you can connect with, good luck man, I know how hard it is, hope you can get back on track soon.

Yeah, I've tried seeing a therapist for about 2 months at the beginning of this year. It wasn't helpful at all, really. I remember he would keep asking me questions that had absolutely nothing to do with the problems, or concerns that I had or that I would tell him about, he would just keep asking the same questions such as "So how does that make you feel?" or start saying things that are completely off topic or completely unimportant. I may try therapy sometime again I don't know yet.

[Abe Froman]

Originally Posted by Ixodon

Yeah, I've tried seeing a therapist for about 2 months at the beginning of this year. It wasn't helpful at all, really. I remember he would keep asking me questions that had absolutely nothing to do with the problems, or concerns that I had or that I would tell him about, he would just keep asking the same questions such as "So how does that make you feel?" or start saying things that are completely off topic or completely unimportant. I may try therapy sometime again I don't know yet.

I think you should try a different therapist, it has to be the right fit. He may or may not be a good one, but that doesn't sound like he's a good one for you. I've seen some people say try a woman if you've been seeing a man or vice versa. Whatever you are comfortable with. I met with one once and new she wasn't right for me, so I found another and it's a lot better.

Also, I don't know anything about your education level, but would you consider going back to school for a degree or another degree? I started that process in my 30's and it has kept me on my toes. New people, new things constantly coming into my life. New subjects and teachers. For anyone that reads this, it doesn't have to cost a fortune, there are lots of great classes at community colleges. Even if you have a degree or don't want to seek one, you could still find something like a philosophy or cooking class or whatever that might just be fun to take.

[Creative1onder]

Originally Posted by Ixodon

I feel very depressed and empty pretty much all the time, and I feel no excitement towards life altogether, and this has been going on for a long time but I've been especially feeling this way for the past 2 months now. I feel a lot of boredom or depression towards life in general. When I'm not at work, I try to do things to stop myself from feeling this way...I try going out different places (even if it means going to these places by myself) or try to hang out with friends, and alot of times I might feel happy in that moment, but when I go home or when I wake up the next day I might feel even more depressed or empty than before. I realize this isn't always true, but a lot of times, it really feels and looks like a lot of people are a lot more satisfied with their life and living happier, more fulfilling lives every time I look around me or look at some of the people I know of. Alot more happier with their lives, always have different things to do or places to be at everyday, have certain things to look forward to, enjoy their job and are proud of their job and where they work at, have much more eventful things going on, and so on. I feel like I have nothing to live for or nothing to look forward to. I never look forward to the next day because I know it's going to be exactly the same as everyday. Everyday when I wake up all I feel is a huge rush of negative emotions....anger, depression, and just this feeling of not wanting the day to happen. I know that one of the reasons, but definitely not the only reason why I feel this way is because of how badly I hate my job. I've applied around to many places but still nothing. I work at a warehouse and I really, really hate just scanning boxes all day or throwing items in boxes all day because it's just very mind-numbing, and it doesn't feel like there's anything important, interesting, or any kind of substance or anything satisfying going on in your day at work and there are many times where time goes by really slow. I've been constantly feeling just this huge emptiness and like I have no importance at all or like my life or even myself as a person doesn't matter and I feel like this is getting worse. I have been deeply struggling with problems of self-worth and there are alot of times where I wonder why am I here or feeling as if a lot of people are better than I am or live lives that have more fulfilling. I wish I didn't feel as if I don't matter. I don't want to keep feeling these terrible feelings anymore. I'm tired of feeling like this and tired of dreading the next day and just want all of this to stop.

Can I ask how do you know for sure that all those people you think are happier,confident, have better life than you, are really? They may have some hidden issues that are not obvious to you. Some people are very good at acting, they play games, mask their insecurities/weaknesses or aren't being their true selves. It can be hard not to, but It isn't helpful, constructive to compare yourself to others and think they are better or worse off than you nor to beat yourself over small unimportant things, or stress about things you can't control. Often we waste a lot of time and energy ruminating about things and worrying or complaining about things that don't really matter or are necessary. stress and illness can arise when we when we bottle up, contain feelings. It is important to find what is meaningful, of value to you personally. And remember that you aren't your depression. The real you is different to depression. Take some time to distance yourself from the mental activity. We all have issues in life, stresses, struggles, things we like and dislike, strengths, qualities and flaws. Nothing is permanent and not everything is all wonderful, rosy or all doom and gloom. Life is a continuous journey..