Want to cry

I just want to cry right now absolutely no reason for it. This funk is getting deeper and I don't like it I think it might have to do with my anniversary of when I hit rock bottom which was 7 years ago this Saturday the 20th. It is amazing that I fought this past 7 years (believe you me sometimes it was very iffy) and keep on ticking as it were. I will be distracted that entire day doing something I enjoy. But the person that actually had the most to do with saving my life that day will be with me on Saturday. It has much different memories for her and last year was the last I thanked those individuals involved. For her I stopped the year before that per her request.

I know I can do this but I think some old stuff is stirring in my head right now and I am not trying to dwell on that but it is a little hard and overwhelming at times. Thanks for listening whoever...

Brains can mess with us. I thought I worked through my PTSD but on my anniversary it reared its ugly head and sent me on a spiral.

Seven years is a big deal. You deserve to honor the moment and your life.

Some day hopefully that memory will just be a routine part of your history. I have found that to be the case for me, anyway. Many hugs.

(((((Snuggles)))))
7 years....good luck with the next 7. Hope it's easier.

Hi Snuggles, anniversaries can sometimes be very triggering and bring things/feelings flooding back even if you'd thought you were doing OK before
And it might be good that the person from 7 years ago will be around...........just use them as much or as little as you need hey??
On one hand they may be able to bring you comfort/security, and on the other they may bring things back even more, so just see how it goes and work from there hey???
But the thing about anniversaries is that they come, they go.........so if you're really struggling around that time remember that it is "just" a matter of time.........it will pass/go..........there will be time the other side of it, where you might be better able to move on.
And you know, maybe you could try to see this anniversary as a celebration of another year where you haven't sunk that low again??? And for 7 whole years to have passed without that happening again, well that is a massive achievement. Perhaps a day to give yourself real credit for how far you've made it, and your strength when times haven't been that good over that period???
Quite fitting you're going to be doing something you enjoy on that day too
And you know, now when you're finding things hard, you've got us for support too.
Alison

Calm down friend ....