Am I depressed?

I'm not really sure if I'm depressed or maybe just suffering from extreme loneliness, but what's odd is, I feel so lonely most of the times even if nothing really happened to me, I just suddenly feel lonely and it feels like it's eating me inside until I just feel empty and worthless. I do have suicidal thoughts and I cut my arms, and I feel even lonelier when my friends see it and they would give me a look of "pity" making me feel like I'm a pathetic being and I should just die so I won't give unnecessary worries to others. I've read articles about depression and it seems that I have one but there's a part inside me that doesn't believe it. I want to know and I want to deal with it better because I don't want to be a burden to others even though I am now being a burden to them...

I'm sorry, I really find it hard to express myself since I can't find the right words to describe my emotions.

Hello blueblast: I'm sorry to hear you are having such difficulty. It certainly sounds as though you have some depression. But there are many varieties of mental illness, & it wouldn't be appropriate for anyone here on PC to diagnose you. This is a job for a professional who has the opportunity to see you in real life.

Clearly, if you're cutting yourself, you need to be seeing someone... a therapist or, possibly, a psychiatrist. Do you receive any of these types of services at the present time? If not, I would strongly encourage you to seek them out. Your dying, so as not to be a burden to others, would in fact impart a huge life-long burden on those who love & care for you. So please... find the help you need. You can overcome the problems you're having now. You just need to find the right help. My best wishes to you...