[jesusplay]

Yesterday I was feel totally drained as if I had had sex like 10 time in one day(I'm a guy), like I ran 30 miles, like I took a 1000 question test or something. I had the feeling, the urge to get "high". I never done drugs outside of alchol but I felt, I need to get up. Very depressed and very argumentative. I need endorphins or something. I want to try heroin But I'm afraid of prison and plus I have no friends to ask for drugs

[Abe Froman]

Ok. I too have never done any drugs other than alcohol(and of course the scripts my docs give me). I'd hate to hear you start now. There are so many ways in life to experience highs naturally. You may feel like you just ran 30 miles, but believe it or not, actually running wears you physically, but will pick your spirit up. If it's sunny, just go sit in the sun for a while. Have you got a dog or a friend with a dog? Go play in the yard with the dog. That's a sure bet.

Ooh, go test drive a cool car like a Jeep or something even though you may not actually be in the market. I think it's fun to do that sometimes.

Any local music or art festivals in your area?

How about go to a setting where there are women and strike up a conversation with one?

Might be what you eat too. Try eating salads with grilled chicken and blueberries, strawberries, and nuts on it for a couple of days. I feel great after I do that.

I hope maybe something in here gives you an idea of how to safely and legally pick yourself up.

Best of luck to you. PM me if you want to brainstorm some more ideas.

[Frankbtl]

Hi jesusplay, it sounds like you're so weighed down by everything..........depression.......coping with it..........and day upon day of that hey?
And you're really wanting some sort of relief/some sort of escape which is completely understandable, and it's good that you're wanting that even but (and you know what I'm going to be saying here!! ) drugs may help very short term......but longer term, there's every chance that they're going to make things even worse if you could get you're hands on them.
You know some of the risks anyway, right??? So while it may seem worth it now just for a little relief.......down the road............
But let's hold onto that feeling that you want things to change, hey? Because that doesn't have to be bad at all.
Can you talk to a pdoc about medication/a change in medication??
Any little things you could add onto your day, even if just for an easy distraction or just something/s that "feel right/OK"??
Could you work even just a little towards bringing some more people into your life (even if you are limited on being able to be a part of any "social scenes")?
Friendships can start very gradually from really small beginnings (you don't necessarily have to "throw yourself in at the deep end"). Just don't be asking them for drugs, OK??
Anyone you can talk with/share some of what's going on for you right now, for some support??
And talk to us, of course, lots of understanding/supportive people on here too!!

Alison

[Altered Moment]

I hear ya. I wish I had some vicodin about now. I am sick with some kind of flu on top of the depression coming back. I am a big baby when sick. I just feel drained.

[healingme4me]

Sorry you're feeling drained and fatigued. Never considered heroin as a functional upper, but recognize your desire for energy. What about wellbutrin?

If looking for non psyche meds. Mj seems a safer solution, some find it helps overcome exhaustion to motivate getting things done. Provided not running heavy machinery or driving...