[purple_roses24]

So it is now 4:09am i have been up since yesterday i have tried to sleep but no matter what i did i just couldnt stay asleep its like all the things i try to block during the day seem to come to me in my sub cautions and it disturbs my sleep because i dont want to deal with my issues when im awake nor when i am sleeping i know I need help andthat is the first step to getting ot is admitting it but there are certain fears i have with confronting my issues i guess its like if i never go to get help for it then i can say to myself there isnt a problem none of my issues are real bit by getting help i can no longer deny the realness of my issues i want help at least i think i do i have lived with my problems and issues for so long im scared of what it would feel like to be normal for even a litte ir at least what society thinks normal should be i pray I get the help i need and none of this affects my lil lady bug cause if i wasnt having her I dont think i wpuld have ever gone as far as joining this site or looking into my depression issues even further if it weren't for my baby i wpuld have never admitted to her father that i need help because i never cared about myself enough to even try to get help but there is something about becoming a mother that makes you want to do better i know my problens wont be solved by the time i have my baby in 6 weeks but i hope to at least have taken an extra step to get healed or shall i say to cope and live with the things that have happened

[Sprite22]

((hug))zz. Sleep is hard here too, good luck.

[Petra5ed]

Have you tried Benadryl? It's too late now, but next time...

You should really see a doctor. Depression is a treatable illness. You could get a sleeping pill and maybe even something to help you feel better. I suffered needlessly for far too long, don't make that mistake. If you feel better it will be better for your baby too, just think of all the energy you could get if they could help you sleep!