Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 12

Bark · Dec 21, 2014 at 10:53 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by herethennow

cant face anything school related - i feel like a failure.

pdoc appt coming soon.
i feel like defaulting and just ... give up.

Same here. It seems whenever I get better, it's only a matter of time before I slip up again. Especially around school. Especially around papers. Why can't I write a damn paper?

Rose76 · Dec 21, 2014 at 11:44 AM

Feeling only fair today.

Dec 21, 2014 at 12:40 PM

A miracle happened. The sun is out - for right now, at least. Thank goodness, because I really needed the sun to be out today. And also, today is Sunday, which means my parents won't be drinking tonight, which means no fights. I can breathe for a little bit. This will be my first okay day in a loooong time. However, I'm still dreading tomorrow and what it will probably be. I'm actually dreading the whole 6 days to come, even Xmas, as I know it will be nothing but just more of the same.

Dec 21, 2014 at 02:37 PM

Checking in for the second time today. I am in a really foul mood. Probably because I've had a headache all day and feel worn out. Partly because of feeling bored and generally useless too. Partly because I am anxious due to having ECT tomorrow. I've been snapping at my husband all day and feel bad about that. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day head-wise and mood-wise . . .

tigerlily84 · Dec 21, 2014 at 02:55 PM

Woke up with a headache. It's gone away and I made plans for the day. I actually felt pretty good. But then I got into an argument with a family member about where I will spend Christmas. The problem is lack of communication, but this person assumes that I am somehow able to read their mind. Sorry that's not possible. Say what you mean and mean what you say. I wish I could say that I didn't let it get to me but that's not the case. I'm annoyed, and I can't wait for the holidays to be over.

Bark · Dec 21, 2014 at 03:29 PM

I'm a mess.

Clara22 · Dec 21, 2014 at 04:41 PM

I am a mess, too. My body is not responding well to treatments. I have to often fight with one of the doctors teams in charge that wants to get rid of me, even I am bleeding and the surgery wound is more open now. I am trying to keep my spirit high and cooperate but sometimes I just want to sleep. I am using the system to complain and so on but sometimes it is too hard. At times I feel better

TheOriginalMe · Dec 21, 2014 at 06:49 PM

Today barely reached daylight, it was cold and damp and grey. I went to the supermarket, they had marshalls in the car park as it was so busy in the run up to christmas. It was a really good idea as it stopped people getting unpleasant. Shame they didn't have marshalls in the store to keep everyone moving in an orderly manner.

Other than that I watched some Tv and slept quite a lot.

aprillynn197 · Dec 21, 2014 at 07:27 PM

Overeating again!!

will19 · Dec 21, 2014 at 08:10 PM

It's been a typical weekend for me. Yesterday was pretty nice as I spent about an hour with a friend of mine. He was with me when I went shopping and at my place. There were no distractions. He was nice to be with, but I feel like he does not understand where I come from. When I tell him how hard it is to make friends for me, he implies that it's my fault.

Last night I rented a movie, and it was terrible. I went to Redbox and the selections were limited. There were not many good movies left. On top of that, while I was at Redbox looking over the selections, a couple of guys were near me talking to each other. I didn't feel comfortable with them there. So I felt hurried to get a movie, and after I left, the two guys did not get a movie like I thought that they were waiting for me to leave. They didn't seem "savory" to me.

Today was alright. Went to church and that was it. Did laundry and went on a little bike ride. Right now I feel very alone and lonely. I have an abbreviated work week this week.

Perfectly Broken · Dec 21, 2014 at 08:45 PM

I'm hurtful, I only focus on the negatives, my behavior and attitude is unacceptable, people should stay away. I only wish I could get away from myself. I don't want to think about work or school or other people, all I feel is pain.

Dec 21, 2014 at 10:54 PM

Well, I knew my 'okay day' would have to come to an end. The sun went down and the sky blackened, and it seems my mood blackened with it. Charred ash. The next 6 days are gonna be rough, as always... I am trying to think positive about it, but that never seems to get me anywhere except disappointed.

H-H-H-H · Dec 22, 2014 at 12:42 AM

A little of both. Good day.

Dan208 · Dec 22, 2014 at 10:19 AM

Feeling a little better today, but yesterday was a very bad day. I know that there are people out there that are worse off than me, but couldn't help but wonder why I'm the one with the heart condition, the back problems, the horrible eyesight, the sleeping problems, the weight problems, the anxiety and depression.........

Makes me so mad and even more depressed that I can't get rid of these feelings and just be happy. Because, despite all those problems, I do have a pretty good life.

regretful · Dec 22, 2014 at 11:31 AM

I suppose that it could be worse. Compared to last year at this time I'm doing much better. Depression comes and goes in a life...it's been coming more frequently for me. I do wish it would fully go...

Dec 22, 2014 at 11:48 AM

i've not been feeling too depressed today. if at all.

dandylin · Dec 22, 2014 at 03:14 PM

Better today than yesterday. I don't like Christmas time. So many lies

aprillynn197 · Dec 22, 2014 at 03:19 PM

Feeling empty when the day is dark

Bark · Dec 22, 2014 at 04:36 PM

New thread!

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...read-13-a.html

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Rose76 Legendary Member Since Mar 2011 Location: USA Posts: 12,505 (SuperPoster!) 13 5,421 hugs given	Dec 21, 2014 at 11:44 AM #982 Feeling only fair today.

Bark Poohbah Member Since Oct 2008 Location: PsychCentral Posts: 1,185 15 8,255 hugs given	Dec 21, 2014 at 03:29 PM #986 I'm a mess.

aprillynn197 Member Member Since Aug 2014 Posts: 451 9	Dec 21, 2014 at 07:27 PM #989 Overeating again!!

Anonymous37914 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 21, 2014 at 10:54 PM #992 Well, I knew my 'okay day' would have to come to an end. The sun went down and the sky blackened, and it seems my mood blackened with it. Charred ash. The next 6 days are gonna be rough, as always... I am trying to think positive about it, but that never seems to get me anywhere except disappointed.

H-H-H-H Account Suspended Member Since Nov 2014 Location: ND Posts: 310 9	Dec 22, 2014 at 12:42 AM #993 A little of both. Good day.

regretful Grand Poohbah Member Since Jun 2012 Location: USA - Posts: 1,863 12 1,194 hugs given	Dec 22, 2014 at 11:31 AM #995 I suppose that it could be worse. Compared to last year at this time I'm doing much better. Depression comes and goes in a life...it's been coming more frequently for me. I do wish it would fully go...

Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 22, 2014 at 11:48 AM #996 i've not been feeling too depressed today. if at all.

dandylin Member Member Since Nov 2009 Location: Rocky Mountains Posts: 451 14 947 hugs given	Dec 22, 2014 at 03:14 PM #997 Better today than yesterday. I don't like Christmas time. So many lies __________________ I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell

aprillynn197 Member Member Since Aug 2014 Posts: 451 9	Dec 22, 2014 at 03:19 PM #998 Feeling empty when the day is dark

Bark Poohbah Member Since Oct 2008 Location: PsychCentral Posts: 1,185 15 8,255 hugs given	Dec 22, 2014 at 04:36 PM #999 New thread! http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...read-13-a.html