[Petra5ed]

When you're depressed like me you realize you can't even talk about what you're really thinking because it's too upsetting for everyone else. What if I don't want to be alive anymore? I'm going on a trip to a suicide Mecca, and no one who "cares" about me has even thought once about it, but I do. What if I decide to end my pain finally.

[Altered Moment]

I am not sure what you mean by going to a suicide mecca. Where are you going?

[Petra5ed]

I just meant that I'm going to a place where many people have killed themselves.

[regretful]

That's a cold and lonely place to be. I hope that you continue to reach out to people through this forum. I hope that you can make it through this difficult time.

[Brintel]

Originally Posted by Petra5ed

When you're depressed like me you realize you can't even talk about what you're really thinking because it's too upsetting for everyone else. What if I don't want to be alive anymore? I'm going on a trip to a suicide Mecca, and no one who "cares" about me has even thought once about it, but I do. What if I decide to end my pain finally.

Before I became depressed I didn't know that such hell was possible here on earth. There are people who are sturdy enough to hear what you're really saying; don't stop looking for them. I have a few, and it only takes a few. Do you have a shrink? I am in less pain now than I was before I went into the hospital, but it has been a long and painful journey for me for about a year and a half. Don't give up.