Help

I'm stuck at a boarding school that my parents make me go to. I hate it. I believe that I am very bipolar and I have periods of time (especially at night) where I feel like complete ****. Over the summer I turned to weed to help boost my mood but doing that here would get me kicked out. Plus the constant pressure from my parents doesn't help. I planned on going home this weekend but my teacher recently told me he would not allow it. I had been planning and looking forward to getting out of this **** hole for the past two weeks. Especially because I haven't been home or seen any of my friends for the past 2 months. So when I heard this news I went into my room and broke down for the first time in months, or maybe even years. I now feel as if I'm about to erupt within the next three days and break down in the teachers class and flip ****.There's more to this story if anyone is interested. is there anything I should do to help? The winter here is much worse and I will feel a hell of a lot worse when it comes. Would meds help? Also, I've never talked to my parents about anything like this and I don't know if I could do it. Any suggestions? Thanks.

What kind of school are you at that you are not allowed to leave? Can you call your parents? I would call them ASAP. Also, if you are at a school is there a counselor or nurse or something you can talk to?

I am assuming you are a teen. Being a teen in general kind of sucked for me and I am so sorry you are going through this.

Is this a historical pattern for you - moods much worse in the wintertime? Have you been screened for bipolar disorder or depression? How's your general health? (Sorry for all the questions; no need to share anything you don't feel comfortable sharing.)

I'm troubled and perplexed your teacher will not allow you to go home.