[Curupira]

I am suffering from cabin fever. I have been stuck in the house the last couple of days. In part because of external circumstances and in part because my mental dysfunction cocktail is making me a little crowd averse.

It's my birthday tomorrow, always a tough time of year for me but it is a little harder this year since I am marking a a major milestone. I'm getting a lot of not fun flash backs.

I hate not being functional, just grrrrrr

[TheLastChapter]

Sending hugs and support your way I hope it gets better for you

[Nammu]

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[geis]

First of all, happy birthday! I hope your day is as wonderful as you are.

It's really hard to be stuck at home. I get stir-crazy a lot. I find the best thing for me is distraction, something (or a combination of things) that occupies my mind so that I'm not so mind-numbingly bored. I play The Sims obsessively--it's silly, but it requires enough attention that it keeps my brain from going to the dark and twisty place most of the time. Other times, I like to put on Netflix or a DVD and knit because that occupies my attention and my hands. It doesn't totally cure the boredom and loneliness, but it makes it more bearable. What works for you is probably going to be different than what works for me, so you might have to try several things.

I hope you get some relief soon.

[Curupira]

Thanks, guys. I get to see my T tomorrow so that is good. Just hate feeling this twitchy. Locking doors, closing blinds. Yes, I am hiding in my house, why? no clue, my brain is being weird. There is no exterior trauma. I do have PTSD but that is do to a medical emergency, why I would be nervous about the outside world all of the sudden makes no sense.

Yay fun and games in the world of depression!

Pardon the sarcasm (coping mechanism)

[geis]

When you have PTSD, your nervous system is constantly on high alert. It gets danger signals from the brain, but it can't interpret the reason for those signals (medical trauma as opposed to interpersonal trauma). It becomes so overstimulated that it sends physiological danger signs back to the brain, and the brain doesn't always interpret them in ways that make sense logically, since the nervous system doesn't even know what it's afraid of. So the brain basically interprets it as "EVERYTHING is dangerous!"

[Curupira]

You are right, just having a bad week I guess. I am having my own unhelpful medical professional situation right now, so I am just riding it out till tomorrow.

Thanks for the love

[angelene]

Happy Birthday!

[Fuzzybear]

[blackflaggnz]

When I got home from school today, I felt so beat up by life and I remembered that I haven't celebrated my last, 18th birthday at all and I felt really sad. And from that little thing + feeling a bit down = me, sitting on the couch, doing just nothing and looking in a void...then...(and I want some suggestions on this) I felt rage and anger for my own current situation and punched the couch so hard and got up and and changed my clothes, cooked a meal, did some housekeeping and more. I wonder if this thing can happen to you, in your situation...to get an thought like "Why the hell am I hiding from the world? There's nothing wrong out there!" And just be changed 180 degrees. Am I that wierd? Oh, and Happy Birthday man!