[Fuzzybear]

I miss most of the former "friends" (IRL) I used to have but I don't think they miss me. I wonder if I'm a sucker, "stupid" or just plain unlikeable. Probably all of those. . Papa bear says he's happy just with me (but he likes spending lots of time alone working etc.... He doesn't like socialising at all). (I hate causing him any pain, when I talk about my pain which I try not to, he feels helpless...) I'm tired of feeling so alone. There's really no one IRL I can trust with my pain ... They just don't want to know . I don't know why I'm still here on this planet (and it's so hard to leave ). I feel like a sorry arsed selfish piece of **** for feeling this way. Fuzzy bear SUCKS

Btw I've been offered 4 sessions of "talking therapy" on the NHS (generic cognitive therapy )

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I feel like a sorry arsed selfish piece of **** for feeling this way.

You may feel that about yourself, and deep-rooted causes exist for those feelings, but your friends here cannot validate those feelings.

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))

[Curupira]

You do not suck, you are one of the sweetest most encouraging people on here. It is hard to keep RL connections when we are in a spiral. When I came out of my first bad one I looked around and everyone I knew was gone. It does not help that I am a natural caregiver and therefore people just assume everything is fine with me.

I am glad you are getting help. Hopefully your T will be able to help you find ways to be honest about your needs and the journey that you are on. You may find that you are less alone than you think.

[Frankbtl]

Fuzzybear DOES NOT SUCK!!!!!!

As for the former friends..........well sometimes friends can drift away when you're depressed especially if they don't quite "get it", doesn't at all mean it's about you more that the depression has put a barrier between you.
And yes, they may well miss you........"just" the depression getting in the way........as well as in the way of you seeing all the good in you!!!
And I'll tell you what, if they don't ever miss you, then you're way better off without them anyway!!!! Not worthy of you, right????!!!!
As for papa bear feeling helpless when you talk about your pain...........well sometimes there is no advise/practical solutions/"right" words is there?? But sometimes it can at least really mean something to be able to tell it as it is, have someone care, understand, listen, be there for you.........perhaps you could let papa bear know that "just" by doing those things he's being far from helpless/useless and sometimes that's just what you need/want.
I'm sorry you've got no-one else in real life you can talk to though...........I'm not sure that it's people not wanting to know, sometimes it can be more about people not "getting it", not knowing "what to say/do" and that can happen a lot.............but you know while you've got US you're NOT alone, right???!!!
Congrats on being offered therapy as well!!!
Although in just the four session (so far??) you make sure you're pushing them on giving you support and things to try/techniques/strategies........whatever they've got that might work for you!!!!

And now...........back to:

Fuzzybear !!!!!!!!



Alison

Oh Fuzzy, I know the feeling. I try to not kvetch to Mr Sophiesmom, but it eventually comes out in a rather disturbingly volcanic way!
I also have lost a lot of friends, but I do not blame them in any way. Maintaining friendships is work, and I simply do not have it in me. I send emails apologizing....
I am sure that they miss you. Your mind is simply telling you a lie.

Depression is such an isolating illness.....

[SmileHere]

Fuzzybear, can you join a support group iRL or something like that? You could meet new friends there, and it would be just like PC but iRL?

Are you speaking about physical or psychological pain? People often don't know what to say, yeah...
I miss some of my friends too, we drifted apart due to different lifestyles and living many miles apart etc! ((hugz))

[browncat]

(((Fuzzybear))) hugs to you, you do not suck. Be good to you!

[Idiot17]

[SeekerOfLife]

I don't socialize, I don't have anyone to share my pain with... plus, for the most part, I wouldn't trust anyone IRL at this point anyway. Nobody ever cared... nobody's going to start now. I can't miss former friends because I never had any. Which way to the guillotine?

[puzzclar]

mmmm I still like you!!!!

[hidesad]

FuzzyBear. Last night I was up all night crying and beating myself up because of a work situation.
You left me a post of three hearts.
It made me smile
You DO NOT suck.


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[Little Jay]

I hate seeing how badly you are feeling fuzzy, and i wish i could do more to help! You are such a caring amazing person, and every single time i have been down and posted here you have always been there, even if its just 3 hearts it still makes me smile and feel like someone cares. Sending a million hugs to you, i hope the sun starts shining brighter for you soon xx

[IDK_Anymore]

I have to agree with Little Jay here!
I've not been on here for very long, and I can see that you FUZZY BEAR are here to help and support others, as you have done with me a few times... Just simple hearts or hugs mean so so much. It shows that you care... In my eyes that's amazing, as you have given YOUR time to do so.

xXx



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[vital]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Btw I've been offered 4 sessions of "talking therapy" on the NHS (generic cognitive therapy )

Fuzzy bear

I offer infinite sessions of SNAP CLUB therapy to everyone in this thread at the low introductory cost of $0:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

I'LL SEE YOU IN HEALTH!!! - vital