Up again tonight

I feel like the pain will never leave me. Why am I the way I am. So damn sensitive and self conscious. I want everyone to like me and hate any sort of conflict/confrontation. Especially mean nasty people I go out of my way to get them to like me in hopes they will not be mean to me. It never works and leaves me feeling awful. That is my issue. I'm ip tonight because I tried to help this mean nasty person at work and it ended with me making a simple mistake and her making a bigger deal out of it and telling everyone.
Like I said my real issue is not having the strength to say no. Instead thinking if I'm really nice to these types of people they will not be mean to me. I'm a naive idiot. A fool. A coward.
I m completely in tears right now.

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Hidesad, you are not a fool or an idiot! I'm sorry that you have to work with someone so horrible who has made you feel this way. Im a bit like you at work, and find it very hard to say no when im asked to help, i get afraid that if i say no then they wont like me or something, and i freak out at the thought of someone not liking me! When someone like that asks for help now, i just say that im reeally busy, but if noone else can help them that i will if i have some time spare. Maybe that sort of reply would work for you? Sending big hugs, J x

Thanks Little Jay.

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