Should I go back to the hospital?

Hi...
so my mom and I were bickering about me not feeling good all the time. I told her part of me just wants to go sit in a hospital and wait until they can figure out what's wrong with me, and she said "I don't know, maybe that's what we need to do" and then she said "Well, not that kind of hospital" referring to mental hospital I believe... but I was thinking about it,but then if I went back I'd be letting everyone down- my old therapist, my mom and sister and dad, my therapist now, teachers- everybody.
What should I do? Sometimes I seriously need help like at *that* moment whenever the moment strikes- I always think "Oh my God, what if that happened and I would get sent away..." Geez life sucks at the moment.

Being is a hospital might seem like a safe place to escaped to but you have to get out at some point.

If you are in serious danger of suicide then of course go. If you have *those* moments sometimes can you sit in a hospital forever for when they happen? You say until they can figure out what is wrong with me. Have you had a thorough evaluation that checks out possible medical issues as well? Maybe look at an intensive out patient program.

Again if you are in serious danger of suicide than for sure go to the hospital.

No matter what you decide, this is a burden you don't need to bear - especially now. Your path to health and wholeness need not be constrained by others' expectations. As best you can, try not to take those voiced and unvoiced expectations in consideration.