[jury431]

Hello! I am Jury (not my real name). I didnt mean to give such a depressive title but I think its time I started facing reality. I am depressed. For the past more than 7 years. I have been undergoing psychotherapy for All this time but not regularly. But then I have not done anything in life consistently something my psychologist has been pointing out. I have a problem maintaining a schedule. I have many times tried relating to what I go through as some kind of addiction or addictivw behaviour except there is no alcohol or drugs my behaviour is addictive. Its like I am not been able to maintain anything consistently. For a long time I thought sleep was the issue. As I get less sleep, I thought thats what was tiring me all the time and making it difficult to sleep. These days I am just loaing my temper at the smallest of things. The only reason I feel I am surviving is because of monetary family support without that somwtimes I feel I would be beggar beghing on the road . I feel too listless but my therapist just keeps telling me I am not consistent and we are not heading anywhere. If anyone shares a similar please say something

[Anxious Minds]

Your therapist tells you that you're not consistent. What are you not consistent with? Do you feel that you are inconsistent? Why?

[jury431]

Work wise mainly. I have too many ideas and I sont stick ro a single one. Nothing no goal seems to be good one. Most of the tines I feel in my mind whats the use? Nothing rewarding is going to come out of whatever I do. Plus I find everything extremely extreme boring work wise. I may be consistent for a month and still go back to old behavior very like drugs. I play a PC game Starcraft2 way too much abd then I try to cut down as I start realizing its getting adicting(and when I am losing) You think a person with an addiction to games in childhood can behave in this repititive self destructing pattern