depressed but not

The pain will leave once it has finished teaching you.

"You're going to be happy."said life, "but first I'm going to make you strong."

I feel exactly that way. Its gets so suffocating. There are times when I am really happy as well. But mostly I stay depressed. I feel that I am begin unthankful for the things I have in life by staying depressed. I should be happy. Because there are people with much worse conditions. But I can't help it. This is the way I have been for past 4-5 years. I have lots of problems with my personality. And I think its getting worse. Sometimes there's nothing to distract you. There's nothing that will provoke your interest. Nothing seems to be working for what you feel somtimes. Pull you away from all those disturbing thoughts. Staying positive is one way to counter it all. Giving yourself reasons for the things that happen. Thinking that better awaits.

I'm also going through that blah feeling at the moment - hard to just shake it off. Things happening at work that is stressing me and can't help obsessively thinking about it! How do you just stop thinking about things negatively??

Even if it's a one in a million chance, there is still a chance