[ak482]

I just spent the Thanksgiving weekend with family. I genuinely enjoyed Thanksgiving day with relatives, cooking meal, watching football and National Lampoon's Christmas Vacation. But when I went to sleep at night, I felt an overwhelming sense of emptiness. That wretched feeling of loneliness and that I will never have a woman to share that joy with and that I'm meant to be alone. It just hit me right as I turned off the lights that I only have a couple more Thanksgivings on this earth before I leave unless a miracle happens to me.

Sorry if I'm not making sense, but I just feel a sense of hurt which is only going to grow this month as more anniversaries of losses and feelings of hopelessness creep in

[jelly-bean]

I'm sorry that you are in such a bad place right now! I know what it is to be lonely because I feelit every day but I have to keep going because there are family and friends who still want and need me. They love me and for now that is enough to keep me around. You are not alone. There are many of us out here. Look for the good things in your life like the relatives you were just with. make those your reasons for living until someone special shows up.