[1Dar]

I ca tell that my jo really hangs in the balance....my direct supervisor, Lad teacher is frustrated with me, but I am at wits end of knowing what to do with my kids. They don't listen they run wild and then I get in trouble for it. People seem to think that I am not wanting to do my job or that I am not capable because of my depression, but it isn't that at all right now. I am doing everything I know how to to control the kids, and they are walking all over me. I am certian it has alot to do with parents, but that doesn't help in the classroom, and some of the ways that I know how to get kids attention are not allowed in the setting I am currently working. I have kids that are like tissue paper, one little spark and they are gone, and you can't get them bcak until they are burned up or doused with water. I just don't know what to do. It is really causing me alot of stress and I am having enough other things to deal with at the moment.

I found out on friday that my thyroid is off and so I am going to be increasing my medication for that. I have been sick for almost 2 weeks with not breathing propper. This was set off by a sudden attack of not being able to breathe, whch scared the crap out of me because I was driving my car at 55mph at 7:30am which means rush hour traffic on a 2lane road. I freaked out and went to the nearest clinic....they told me nothing was wrong and sent me home. This didn't go over well with work because I didn't call in before i went to the dr, so I was 45mins past the start of my shift in even calling in, but i mean i couldn't breathe so what was I supposed to do, call work and risk a car accident?

Anyways.....at times the breathing has been better and then at times it has been really bad. Tonght I don't know if it is the liquor or the breathing that is causing lightheadedess, but it was St Patricks Day so i had a couple drinks to celebrate the little bit o Irsh in me...

Wow i just realized that this is getting really long, but my job really hangs in the balance right now....got lots of thinking to do tomorrow.

well thanks for any support you can give, and sory if this is really long and repeatitive or anything weird, I am under the influece of alochol, although only slightly. I PROMISS I AM NOT DRIVING!

Dar

[Hopefull]

Teaching is a hard job. I hope you find a way to make it work for you. I'm glad that you did drive with alcohol in your system. Well, I have to go to bed now.

[Christina86]

((((((((Dar))))))))))

Working with kids, especially in an educational setting is hard, with or without other factors coming into play. (My mom's a teacher, and I've done some TA'ing as a co-op placement)

Try to take care.