[PeterPan2003]

Your probably thinking about my username, you will know why it's that later on. Anyway, I don't know what I have wrong with me but I know there is something wrong with me. I obviously have some sort of depression but also something else. I don't like change and sometimes see people who I think I have seen before but have never seen in my life, and also love people who I have never met but when they change I don't love them anymore so it's obvious, I don't like change. I'm a quiet person and I feel like I'm never going to die like being immortal and I feel like an old soul or people have said I have an old soul and often watch the same videos over and over again if powerful scenes. And finally about the username... I bought peter pan 2003 on blu ray watched it and felt sad because I dint want to grow up and I looked at the actor who played peter pan (Jeremy Sumpter) I saw he grew up and I felt sad almost crying. I think the story and epically the music is just beautiful he I was just looking out my window wanting for someone to take me away because reality is **** to me, you go to school, you go to college, you work for the rest of your life, then die I don't want to do that I want to live forever never for up and always have fun and thus explains my name. What the he'll is wrong with me. Have a good day for anyone who has read this

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, PeterPan2003. You have an interesting set of observations of yourself. Getting screened for depression, etc. would be a natural next step.

PsychCentral Depression Quiz
Sanity Score Quiz
- These are simply screening tests; they are not diagnostic.

Does your college offer counselling of any type?

Please make yourself at home here.

[waterknob1234]

Hello PeterPan2003. Welcome to pc. I don't like change either, unless I am the one in control of the change.

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[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Originally Posted by PeterPan2003

... you go to school, you go to college, you work for the rest of your life, then die ...s

There is a bit more to it than that, but most people feel something like this in early adulthood I think - is there a school counsellor or suchlike you can talk to if this is getting you down?

[PeterPan2003]

I think my college has someone I can talk to but I wouldn't go, no one around me knows I feel like this when I'm with friends and family I'm ok but when I'm alone I start thinking, even meditating some times ill sit down close my eyes and listen to spiritual music for about an hour and look into my mind. I think I make things up in my head some times that aren't real and I get confused between what I created and reality and then I get said because the things I created are not in my reality. Anyway thanks for the replies

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

Originally Posted by PeterPan2003

... things up in my head some times that aren't real and I get confused between what I created and reality and then I get said because the things I created are not in my reality. Anyway thanks for the replies

I am slightly concerned for you now, it is tough to open up but the benefit usually outweighs the discomfort - I hope you are able to try especially if your feelings worsen.