Struggle

I got off this site because I wanted to move forward and not dwell on negative. I tried to write once before and it seemed to have saves the beginning of what I was writing.

I felt better and I tried to move on being with positive thinking and working on bring grateful...but now, I am in dark dark place again.

So am back here.

This fight or struggle or whatever it is called is very hard. I keep falling.

It is was so bad that I called hotline again. I'm not going to do anything to myself as I do not know what happens and it might be worse than here.

I know that I have roof over my head and am working harder than I have ever rid in my life and making the least amount of money doing it...and am considered at poverty level.

I seem to attract guys that are something wrong and is attracted to me because there is something wrong with me.

My alarm went off so I need to get ready for work.

Just so down for days and nothing is lifting me up. So I am back here again.

Please please ....I just want it to stop !!!!

Keep putting one foot in front of the other. It will get you to where you're going.

I like your comment something wrong with the guy you attract. I am not sure I could have a girl that did not have 'something wrong'. Not sure they would understand me. Its not just that though. We can struggle together.

You are not failing. You are a survivor

I used to think that I wanted someone to struggle together and get through tough times together but this one day when the guy was showing me how to find money on the street and bum off cigs ( I don't smoke anymore), I knew that this is wrong!!! My life shouldn't be to struggle with someone together like that.

I too wanted someone who understands and you go through together but not that way the universe showed me.



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Yes, I am surviving... I hang on because there are people....close friend, some friends and strangers - who seems to help the most recently. People tell me you can't rely on others. True but it's people who have saved me and keeping me together. I mean I really cling on. I know I seem desperate but that is because I am trying to survive

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I understand the part about trying to survive. I am there. Life is cruel and it stinks sometimes. Keep taking one day at a time. Trust your best instincts when it comes to good people and good guys to keep company with. You are a good person. We will make it.