[A18793715]

I've been extremely depressed. I have major depression and I'm at one of my all time lows I've ever experienced. Last Thursday, my parents forced me to go to the psych hospital last thursday because I accidently ran into the wall and that "proved" for that night I was "f***ed up". The real thing is, my dad had a christmas present and told me to take it to my room and he said it was light. So I grabbed it and it was way heavier than I thought. I've had bad shoulder pain for 5 months now and my the pain got to bad in the 5 seconds I was holding it, and my arm gave out on me and I was trying to hurry up and grab it, despite the pain, because it was breakable and I didn't want it to fall and so my leg caught the living room table and I fell into wall. So because they said I was "F****ed up constantly" and how I "Need to stop doing all those drugs", they forced me to go to the hospital and if it wasn't for my boyfriend, I would have been there until today. But when I ask my parents what drugs I'm on, of course, they yell at me.
I haven't lived at home since I was 17. They have no idea how I am when I get like this because they've never seen me this depressed because I have to hide it from them or you get *****ed out for that. There is no support or understanding in my house. So instead, according to them, I'm always "f****ed up on those heavy drugs".

There's nothing I can say. All I can say is my medicine hasn't changed. Nothing added. Nothing. But nothing I says matters.

They don't think depression is as debilitating as it is, so I'm lazy on top of being on drugs.

Even on max ssi, I can't afford to move out of this house. There's only one person in this city I would trust living with but she doesn't want to move out and I'm not going to beg her just for my sanity.
I can't afford to move out of this city until I get work it out where I can move next fall and live in a dorm and that's only if I can work it out perfectly.

But just. Constantly feeling like no one believes you and thinks you're just another junkie, it just makes everything worse.

[kaliope]

so why not go buy some OTC drug tests to take in front of them when they accuse you of doing drugs. that should shut them up.

[A18793715]

Unless they buy it, I can't afford to.

[Altered Moment]

That was my first thought. I think they cost about 30 bucks. You could say let's go get one of those drug tests right now and find out the next time they say it.

I am sorry you are not getting any support from them. I think they should be required to read this section for a month to find out what it is really like.

Can your doctor explain it to them?

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[CosmicRose]

Every time they tell you to "stop doing drugs" immediately tell them to buy a drug test so you can prove you're not on drugs, tell them to buy a drug test every day until they do. When they submitted you to the hospital, you should have asked the hospital to do a drug panel test because your parents were accusing you of drugs and you weren't. The hospital would have ran the tests and shown your parents you were clean.
Do they mean the medication you're on is "heavy drugs"?
If they are being abusive, the best thing to do is keep your distance and just focus on your life and taking care of yourself, moving on with your life.

Success is the best revenge - Frank Sinatra