[acceptingmyself5150]

I have read many posts since joining PC a few days ago and although I have read many heartbreaking posts, I also recognize a lot of bravery in what I am reading. I have been clinically depressed for the past 5 months and I have to say that one of the hardest things I deal with are mornings. I can usually go to bed with a sense of peace and a little optimism that tomorrow will be a new day and I can start fresh. However, when morning comes there always exists that horrible feeling in my stomach. That feeling of "How am I going to get through this day?" Thankfully I still get up, go to work, and fulfill my basic responsibilities. But the emptiness I feel in the morning is intense. Can anyone relate and/or share coping strategies?

Oh boy, can I relate to this! Every morning I drag myself out of bed & spend my whole time in the shower chanting: "I wish I would just die. Why can't I just die. Please let me die..." Fortunately at this point, I've aged into my retirement years. (I haven't been employed for around the past 15 years.) But, like you, no matter how depressed & riddled with anxiety I felt, I was still able to get up & do what I had to do. I didn't necessarily do it well. But I did it.

I can't tell you how draining this is when it goes on year after year. You write that you've been clinically depressed for 5 months. I don't know what, if anything, you're doing to treat your depression. But I'd like to encourage you to do something... what ever you feel makes sense for you. I lived in complete denial, literally for decades until it all came crashing down when I turned 50. I had a not too serious bout with cancer. It was not life threatening. But it kicked the supports out from under me & 15+ years later, I'm still falling. My best wishes to you...

[TorturedSoul92]

I can relate almost too well. Mornings are really hard. Thankfully, it's gotten easier since I was prescribed Wellbutrin. Are you currently seeing a therapist or taking anything for the depression?

[herethennow]

can relate too. when i'm feeling down, the dread comes.

i just take the day slowly though

i always dreaded mornings, just didn't want to get up and go to work. Could sleep for a long time in the morning because it just felt safe to stay in bed. But had to push myself. Sorry I don't have any advice.
Coffee is a huge addiction for me in the morning, it helps, but not to the extent I drink it.

[waterknob1234]

I can relate to this. Morning is my hardest time of day. I wake up with this sense of dread, what is this day going to bring. I also suffer nightmares that seem to be worse early in the morning. I wish I had some good advice for you. I just make myself get out of bed, shower, and go to work. Usually by mid-day I feel better.

I drink lots of coffee too, and do a lot of praying when I can concentrate. My added factor is that my migraine headace medicine makes it hard to get up in the morning. When I tried to taper off of it migraines headaches came. I can't function with migraines so I went back on the migraine medicine.

Best wishes

[TheOriginalMe]

Mornings are so bad, especially when depression plays another of its cruel tricks, the early morning call. So not only are mornings intensely painful, they start at 4:30am when I don't need to be awake until 6am. When I'm not at work I wallow around on the sofa cuddling my dog until I can function. When I am at work I crawl around hoping that no one notices me.

I get morning depression a lot myself. I seem to have them more on the weekends than I do when I have to go to work. But when I have breakfast, I feel much better. But then I would had dread times just before lunch on the days that I work. Sometimes, I would have dread or anxiety when I get home from work. But I rarely get anxiety when I go to work.

Funny thing is that in the evenings, I feel pretty good. I feel like the junky madness that enters my mind during the day just goes away. I don't know why that is.

[Lonely Kitten]

Mornings are definitely the worst time of the day for me. Even when the day before seemed to have felt better . . . For some reason every morning is a struggle for me. The dread, apprehension, anxiety, sadness . . . It's all so unbearable! All I want to do is stay in bed and not get up. But I have somehow managed to get to work 5 days a week. Knowing that I'll be able to drink espresso (5 shots!) has helped me somehow. I usually feel better after I'm at work, and in the end I'm glad I made it to work that day. I guess this has been behind my strength to get out of bed and get to work! I'm realizing more and more that we have to be gentle with ourselves, and take things slowly.

[acceptingmyself5150]

I want thank all of for your posts to my comments about Morning Depression. It does help to know I am not alone. Ironically, I've been watching the 90s sitcom Frazier before I go to bed. It stars Kelsey Grammar as a radio pyschiatrist. Very funny and something to look forward to each day. It's on Netflix.

mornings are hard for me too.

very hard

hate it..

hate the feeling of being run over by a truck

it's terrible

[yep its me]

I have the same problem! I hate it so much, every morning I wake up feeling so depressed that if I don't have to get up to work I stay in bed and sleep just to keep avoiding this feeling. I have started keeping my morning meds (which includes Lorazapam) on my nightstand with a glass of water. When my alarm first goes off I take my meds and hit the snooze a couple more times. Seems to help a little some days, others not at all. I often wonder if I am having bad dreams that cause me to wake up feeling so depressed, as sometimes I can remember a dream or two, and they would definitely be reason to cause bad feelings. But most of the time I don't remember dreams so I don't know if that is the cause or not. I do however know I am prone to lots of nightmares, I used to be able to remember them better.