No matter what I've ever been involved in that also involved other people, it has always ended badly. Whether it was paid work, volunteerism, casual contact with acquaintances, or even family (way back when I still had some), sooner or later it all went down the crapper. Sometimes it was me becoming incensed over some perceived injustice that was being done to some vulnerable group or individual. Sometimes it was as a result of my personal incompetence or lack of tenacity, or just my inability to deal with people on an ongoing basis.

So my gift to humanity is to just keep to myself... no employment, no volunteer efforts, no acquaintances, & no attempts to develop friendships. And, family, well... time has taken care of that one. They're all dead, (except my wife.) With me out of the picture, there's at least one teeny tiny burr out from underneath the public saddle, so to speak! In the whole scheme of things it doesn't amount to much. But it's what I have to give.

[pegasus]

((( The Skeezyks ))) I think we all feel like shutting ourselves away from time to time and that is ok. Ps. You still volunteer... as a community liaison so I'm not going to let you get away with it for too long!

[vital]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

No matter what I've ever been involved in that also involved other people, it has always ended badly. Whether it was paid work, volunteerism, casual contact with acquaintances, or even family (way back when I still had some), sooner or later it all went down the crapper. Sometimes it was me becoming incensed over some perceived injustice that was being done to some vulnerable group or individual. Sometimes it was as a result of my personal incompetence or lack of tenacity, or just my inability to deal with people on an ongoing basis.

So my gift to humanity is to just keep to myself... no employment, no volunteer efforts, no acquaintances, & no attempts to develop friendships. And, family, well... time has taken care of that one. They're all dead, (except my wife.) With me out of the picture, there's at least one teeny tiny burr out from underneath the public saddle, so to speak! In the whole scheme of things it doesn't amount to much. But it's what I have to give.

The Skeezyks,

Your posts are SO helpful and knowledgeable and patient, I think you help a lot of people just in the forum and I know a lot of people agree with me. I hope you can find a way to feel good and enjoy being alive. People worry about various kinds of success, but nothing much matters or compared to just appreciating the feeling of being alive.

- vital

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((( Skeezyks ))))))))))

[waterknob1234]

Skeezyks, you are certainly not a failure to humanity. You have been so helpful to me and many others here on this forum, so don't doubt yourself.

Taking into account all the large and lethal burrs underneath the public saddle you seemfairly benign Trust me on this.. the world is full of asshats, jerks, bullies, etc. And then there are the really bad people. You can't hold a candle to any of them Hang in there.

[boomerango]

I'm with the others. i enjoy your posts, The Skeezyks. I'm glad you are here. I'm all for solitude if it helps you feel better.

[Altered Moment]

I don't care what people say. The internet is human connection, just a different form. It certainly hasn't went to the crapper around here and you sure are not a bur under anyone's saddle here.

[JohnCrow]

I read your post and thought "when the hell did I post that?"

It is that spiral down, social interaction is stressful so I will reduce it, now no one connects with me because I withdraw, now I am sad so, to avoid stressing others, I withdraw, which makes them less likely to interact with me

I actually said, to a friend of mine dying of cancer, that I wished it had been me instead. His removal left a huge gap in people's lives. Mine would have had someone say "what happened to [JohnCrow]?" "Dunno..." "Oh...okay. So wanna get lunch?"

Originally Posted by pegasus

((( The Skeezyks ))) I think we all feel like shutting ourselves away from time to time and that is ok. Ps. You still volunteer... as a community liaison so I'm not going to let you get away with it for too long!

Yes, this is true... I sometimes joke that if the internet ever went down, it would take my whole life with it!

[Idiot17]

Agree with the rest.....no burr....
((((((skeezyks)))))

Originally Posted by JohnCrow

I read your post and thought "when the hell did I post that?"

It is that spiral down, social interaction is stressful so I will reduce it, now no one connects with me because I withdraw, now I am sad so, to avoid stressing others, I withdraw, which makes them less likely to interact with me

I actually said, to a friend of mine dying of cancer, that I wished it had been me instead. His removal left a huge gap in people's lives. Mine would have had someone say "what happened to [JohnCrow]?" "Dunno..." "Oh...okay. So wanna get lunch?"

The thing is... with me, I freely choose this path for the benefit of all humanity, as well as myself....

[Clara22]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

The thing is... with me, I freely choose this path for the benefit of all humanity, as well as myself....

Sorry if I am blunt or something but I beg you separate the two things: yourself and humanity for a bit.

About humanity: the world is full of people, all of them are diverse. Some people are fat, some are slim, some are tall, some are short, some are children, some are older people. Some people have depression, some people don't. But everybody has to put up with each other. Because human beings are social entities and we need each other to survive. And because every human being has the right to live, no matter what. You exist. You have the right to be here and the other people have to deal with it, in the same way you have to deal with them. Even if everybody in this world hated you, you would have the right to exist.
A different thing is that if you do not want to exist because of whatever reason/s. If you make a decision in control of your own life.
But I do not think this is the case. I think you are mixing the two things and you perhaps are giving too much weight to other people wishes or prerogatives.
Sorry if my English is not OK.

((((((hugs))))

you're deffenetly not useless

at all