[macy666]

What's the point? There's no hope for me alive... I should just die... End it.. Leave this awful ****ing planet... Its never going to stop, I haven't even told my parents about my depression, my mother ****ing screamed at me this morning over nothing, this is every day EVERY day and no it won't end... I need to die... Its not worth it anymore...

[Insignificant other]

There is a point macy666 and its you!
You are a valuable member of society .. don't give up.
I am the mother of a daughter who died in 1995 and I still have not gotten over it.
Call a crisis center and talk to someone for a bit .. believe me, it will help you, please!
Im thinking of you.

[macy666]

Originally Posted by Insignificant other

There is a point macy666 and its you!
You are a valuable member of society .. don't give up.
I am the mother of a daughter who died in 1995 and I still have not gotten over it.
Call a crisis center and talk to someone for a bit .. believe me, it will help you, please!
Im thinking of you.

Thank you... I'm so sorry you're daughter passed away... Thank you for your advice <3

[Rohag]

Hello, Macy666.

Basic question/distinction:
Do you want to die, OR
do you want the pain to stop?

If your goal is to stop the pain, you probably need to get substantive help - being depressed and a minor both limit what you can do yourself. Based on what you've written, your mother cannot serve as your ally in getting the pain to stop.

Do you have access to a doctor?

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( macy666 )))))))

[macy666]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, Macy666.

Basic question/distinction:
Do you want to die, OR
do you want the pain to stop?

If your goal is to stop the pain, you probably need to get substantive help - being depressed and a minor both limit what you can do yourself. Based on what you've written, your mother cannot serve as your ally in getting the pain to stop.

Do you have access to a doctor?

The pain won't stop, dying is my only option, I don't have access to a doctor or anything, I'm trapped, and my mother apologized, thank you

[JohnCrow]

A bit of advice: Don't do what I do (nothing) and get some help. There is something wrong with you and it is called mental illness. Many of the people on this site suffer from it.

The issue comes from hopelessly outdated mindsets. If you had a broken leg no one would say "just get up and run around, it'll go away" or "you cannot have a broken leg, you are so young"

A great number of people still see mental illness as a sign of personal weakness. They will heap derision of someone and say they are a wuss or a crybaby or just express maudlin sympathy, thinking that maybe all you need is a kind word or a hug. These same people will often cheer on someone who suffers from a more physical ailment, citing their courage. Even many with mental illness regard it as a personal failing and either suffer in silence or drown their pain in substance abuse.

What happens when the thing that betrays you is the thing that is most of what we call you, your mind? When I am at my worst I suffer from delusions and paranoia and, when I come out, the thoughts I had seem so stupid. But, in the depths with the dogs your sense of what is, and is not, real is skewed

Let me put it to you this way: Just because you know there are strings, it doesn't make you any less of a puppet. You need to get treatment, cut the strings that make you dance a dirge waltz against your will and live a long, happy, healthy life.

In other words, as I said earlier, don't be a fool like me

[macy666]

Originally Posted by JohnCrow

A bit of advice: Don't do what I do (nothing) and get some help. There is something wrong with you and it is called mental illness. Many of the people on this site suffer from it.

The issue comes from hopelessly outdated mindsets. If you had a broken leg no one would say "just get up and run around, it'll go away" or "you cannot have a broken leg, you are so young"

A great number of people still see mental illness as a sign of personal weakness. They will heap derision of someone and say they are a wuss or a crybaby or just express maudlin sympathy, thinking that maybe all you need is a kind word or a hug. These same people will often cheer on someone who suffers from a more physical ailment, citing their courage. Even many with mental illness regard it as a personal failing and either suffer in silence or drown their pain in substance abuse.

What happens when the thing that betrays you is the thing that is most of what we call you, your mind? When I am at my worst I suffer from delusions and paranoia and, when I come out, the thoughts I had seem so stupid. But, in the depths with the dogs your sense of what is, and is not, real is skewed

Let me put it to you this way: Just because you know there are strings, it doesn't make you any less of a puppet. You need to get treatment, cut the strings that make you dance a dirge waltz against your will and live a long, happy, healthy life.

In other words, as I said earlier, don't be a fool like me

Thank you, I'm so sorry for what you've been through, hang in there <3

[waterknob1234]

Hi Macy. You are such a good, wonderful person. I hope you can get some help. Is there a school counselor, or other trusted adult you can talk to?

Hang in there, you are worth it.

[macy666]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

Hi Macy. You are such a good, wonderful person. I hope you can get some help. Is there a school counselor, or other trusted adult you can talk to?

Hang in there, you are worth it.

Thank you, there's no one I can talk to, I appreciate it but I'm a horrible person, a lot of people hate me, thank you