[kutt38]

hi,
i would like to get a little help in here.want to know if i have depression.i have taken a number of online quizes & they all say i have it.my situation doesnt allow me to consult a therapist.i dont feel bad everyday.but most of the days i feel so sad.i end up lying on my bed thinking all the negative stuff.i have a loving family.but i cant open up to any of them.i am afraid everyone will hurt me somehow.feels like no one can ever love me & i am BAD.Really bad.i hate myself the most.i have been molested a number of times during my chilhood& teenage.i dont love anyone sincerely.i doubt everyone.my moods change for no reason.certain nights i end up crying for no reason.at times i have injured myself.not with an intension to die...just because it feels good.most of the days i wish if i were dead.i have lost track of my life.once i was a bright student.now i hate books & am a poor performer.i dont use drugs.no smoking.certain days i dont feel hungry.sometimes i eat a lot.its difficult for me to fall asleep certain days.but other times i sleep for hours.my sex drive also keeps changing.sometimes i cry while masturbating.dont know why.sometimes i feel all alone,worthless & ugly.there are times i enjoy with friends.only i know this sad part of me.i wear a happy face infront of others.am just confused if am depressed or not.how is depression like?what do you feel?do post it here.thanks

[palerefraction]

Kutt, while I'm not a professional, some of our 'symptoms' are the same.
-self hate
-untrusting of others
-mood swings
-self injury
-unstable appetite/sleep schedule

I was diagnosed with General mood disorder however I am currently switching pdocs (psychiatrist) to see what they say.

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[kutt38]

is there anyone out there feeling the same, and diagnosed with depression?pls help

[vital]

Originally Posted by kutt38

hi,
i would like to get a little help in here.want to know if i have depression.i have taken a number of online quizes & they all say i have it.my situation doesnt allow me to consult a therapist.i dont feel bad everyday.but most of the days i feel so sad.i end up lying on my bed thinking all the negative stuff.i have a loving family.but i cant open up to any of them.i am afraid everyone will hurt me somehow.feels like no one can ever love me & i am BAD.Really bad.i hate myself the most.i have been molested a number of times during my chilhood& teenage.i dont love anyone sincerely.i doubt everyone.my moods change for no reason.certain nights i end up crying for no reason.at times i have injured myself.not with an intension to die...just because it feels good.most of the days i wish if i were dead.i have lost track of my life.once i was a bright student.now i hate books & am a poor performer.i dont use drugs.no smoking.certain days i dont feel hungry.sometimes i eat a lot.its difficult for me to fall asleep certain days.but other times i sleep for hours.my sex drive also keeps changing.sometimes i cry while masturbating.dont know why.sometimes i feel all alone,worthless & ugly.there are times i enjoy with friends.only i know this sad part of me.i wear a happy face infront of others.am just confused if am depressed or not.how is depression like?what do you feel?do post it here.thanks

Hi kutt,

If you haven't done it already, I think it would be a good idea to first check for the many common medical/nutritional issues that can case depression and other mental problems. See here for what I think is the best overall plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

As for what depression depression is like, I have a description of my own and what I think is generally going on at the top of the above thread:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

- vital