What to do if your brain found excuse to be depressed?

Lets imagine - you struggle with depression for a few years with help of SSRI pills. And you got very close to success, almost tamed your depression, came off from the pills, but suddenly something horrible happens in your life. Doesn't matter what in particular, but something really terrible and extremely painful. And you fall back into depression even deeper than you were in the beginning. You cant go back on pills, because you just got off from them. You become incredibly depressed, almost suicidal, every day memories of the event haunt you, and every your depressive mood seems justifiable. Like in the beginning you were depressed without proper reason, but now there is very proper reason, and your brain sees this event as perfect excuse to be depressed further and the negative cycle becomes very strong. How to break it?

Try another prescription? Why did you go off the SSRI?

Now you have a reason to feel sad and depressed, you can work through it, almost more hope than last time. Medication,however can help you cope while you do so so you don't do anything you or those around you would regret. This is a new episode, having recently come off is not a reason not to use meds again,except your pride.
Good luck with working towards recovery. Be kind and understanding to yourself.

No, it is not an option.

I dont understand - why there is more hope? This event not something that can be "worked through". Its not a real problem that might be solved, its excuse for brain to be depressed. Before i could say to myself "stupid brain! there is nothing seriously wrong in your life, get your stuff together" and now my mind agrees with brain like "yeah man, our life is totally overwhelmed with sadness, you are right to be depressed, lets wallow in misery together".

Then it sounds like you'll never get better. Seriously though the point is you'll eventually grieve and get past what you went through. If your depression is due to that, you will eventually get better. You don't seem to want to hear that, though.

If meds aren't an option and you believe that distorted thinking is part of the problem then CBT is probably the most effective treatment out there.

If something bad happened, you are going to need time to process it. I don't know how much of that you have or haven't been doing, but it's okay to grieve something. That's often part of the process.

Worst comes to worst, though, just stick to whatever gets you through the day. Coming off medication can be hard and getting used to living through ups and downs can take awhile.

No, i want to hear that. Its just, i dont feel like it.

Yeah, i thought about it a lot and sent many e-mails to psycho-centers, but for some reason this type of therapy is very expensive, its costs 1/5 of my month salary. I can afford only 1 hour per month. Does it makes any effect after 1 hour of therapy?

Its been 6 months already. Im just afraid that time wont help me to get better.

Some people need more time, and others need less. Try not to measure yourself by it and focus on the actual progress you're making and the experiences you're having that are good.

Time may not "heal all wounds", necessarily, but every day that we're alive our perspectives and minds have the ability to stretch and change. There's no saying where we might be even a few weeks down the road.

A lot of people I know like meditation.