[tirednfedup]

I live half the world away.....I lost my Mom to a stroke in this land...it took her almost four years to die a slow painful death. During this time I lost everything in order to pay bills. I lost my wife to another man and i lost my house, car and business. I moved to an area where I dont know anyone....I have health issues and I cant sleep. When I see a Dr hete they tell me to meditate or walk on the beach....this all started in late 2008....and its been a ride to hell and back. I lost people I thought were long time friends.....my wife of 11. Years was a card player and i never knew it.......so people say move back to the USA...Where I have no family and maybe Two old friends.......my new gf seems to be after wgat little i have left.........I cant sleep i am lonley in a faje paradise its my prison.

[kaliope]

losing it all can be looked at as a good thing because you can start fresh and build a new life just the way you want it. so what you want to keep? what new things would you like? what would make you happy? what steps do you need to get there? why do you need a girlfriend who is using you?

i'm so sorry. sometimes there are just no words for the painful losses in life, but i can offer hugs.

are you in therapy? that might really help you.