I feel sad only around my husband

Dx with MDD taking zoloft. People noticed a good difference in me. My husband is toxic,. I married too early. I should have known there were some red flags. It was a shotgun wedding. I have a baby. My brain tells me I gotta leave this addict for the sake of our child. He opposes or he'll give me threats of self harm and rampGe. My heart mourns because I lost my real husband. Why did he decide to use now? At the worst time. I needed him. Now all I see is a bony man nodding off and being extremely loud and irritable. Accusations paranoia , threats, I can't take it anymore. But my heart needs him...sometimes he takes care of me, and our baby.

My license is gonna expire soon. I'm worried about divorce. He withdrew Ll our money to get his drugs. But he still buys food and diapers. I can't be married to someone who I know will deplete our account at random. I'm so lost. I need to decide now. My parents pressure me to leave him. His parents pressure is to stay together ugh I'm so sad

I am so sorry for your situation. I can imagine how stressful this marriage is. It is easy for us to tell you do this or do that! But it won't be that easy for you. You try to push your emotions aside and think for yourself and of course your child. I say you follow your brain and your family advice. Unless you can see a bright future staying with him! It's your call to decide. Just keep in mind that once the child grows up, things could be a bit complicated at that time.
Anyways, I am sure others will help you here. I pray for you. I hope things turn out great for you soon!
Be strong!

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Read what you wrote and ask what if a person you loved was in that situation. What would you advise?

Getting sober is the responsibility of the user, you cannot help them make this choice.

Best wishes

Striking just gave GREAT ADVICE IMO!